JOSHWISEJOSHWISEPoetry BookPoetry Book

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The National Autistic Society

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JOSHWISEJOSHWISEPoetry BookPoetry Book

Author: JOSH WISE

Publisher : JOSH WISE

All Copyrights Reserved by JOSH WISE 2014

Josh Wise’s Poetry

CONTENTS

About Me

About My Family

Autism Poem

Smiling Poem

Self-Harming Poem

Teachers Poem

You Shut the Door Poem

Maths Poem

Why did I write each poem?

ABOUT MEI am Joshua James Wise I prefer being called Joshthough, I am from Bedfordshire in the United Kingdom.I have written a poetry book with all my poems I havedone to date March 2014.

What made me write poetry? I have been interested in poetry since a young age and I have been writing poetry since a young age. I havestruggled with a lack of confidence most of my life as I used to get bullied many times throughout middle andhalf of upper school life (secondary and high school).

I wrote my first poem and first showed my friendRachael who I attended upper / high school with, we always had a strong positive friendship and we havenever fell out or argued with each other. One day afterI was finished writing my first poem I asked Rachaelwhen we were making our way to class if she wouldn’tmind reading the poem that I had wrote if she didn’tmind. She said that it was fine and she would like toread it. Rachael very kindly gave a positive, lovely response and then she said that I should show Mr Hopkins (this was one of mine and Rachael’s teachers). I therefore wanted to show Mr Hopkins butdue to my lack of confidence, I asked if I could go to the photocopier while he read the poem. When I returned to the classroom, he said he had neverread such a wonderful, lovely piece and made him reallyproud of what I achieved. Mr Hopkins then said youcould present it to the class and the six formers thatwere sharing the classroom.

I was completely blown away by how well the feedbackthat Mr Hopkins and Rachael gave me. I started tostruggle when I started reading, but when I got all myconfidence I read as clear as I could and tried to keepfluent while I was reading before I finished. It was hardat the start but the hard work paid off by making myconfidence sky high, since this I have wrote more poemsand my confidence is much of a higher level.

I am currently 15 years old and I have suffered Autismbut mainly the Aspergers this is a form of Autism. I was diagnosed with Aspergers at a quite a late age ofmy middle school life. I have tried to forget that I sufferwith Aspergers.

You may be wondering what actually is Aspergers. Aspergers is a form of Autism that affects my socialskills working well with others, changes of a routine,talking a lot about my favourite subject, eye contactskills staring at others having delayed motor skills. My most affect I have out of what I gave you is changesin a routine as I like to stick to a specific routine if notI can turn upset and annoyed.

ABOUT MY FAMILYI have five sisters and zero brothers all my five sistersare all older than me that means I am the youngestchild my mum has had.

I have currently got my dad’s parents my grandparentsalive. I am very close and have a strong bond with mydad’s parents. My Granddad has been alive since WorldWar II and he came disabled but my Nan my dad’s mumcares deeply about my Granddad just like all of us. I couldn’t be without my Nan or Granddad.

I used to see my mum’s mum my Nan when she wasalive and she unfortunately passed away when I was five,I still miss her to no date and always will.

I unfortunately never met my mum’s dad who wouldhave been my granddad. My Mum’s Mum was such alovely person, who I love deeply about and always will, I remember going to her house and taking packets ofmini cheddars with me whenever I used to visit to thisdate I still remember this.

AUTISM POEM

Although I struggle to show my emotions,

I get annoyed when I cannot explain myself,

I get into a muddle of confusion,

Am I different?

Do I know I’m different from anyone?

Do I understand?

I love my family and friends more than anything,

Along with all my teachers who can make my day with the joy on their face when they please me with praise,

My smile keeps everybody happy,

My autism is letting me speak out as I struggle with confidence,

This may make me different,

This makes who I am,

I may be different,

But this won’t stop me living my life,

Although I will not stop loving everybody who has made my life a joyful place,

I would like to thank also God, Lord and Jesus for making who I am along with my parents.

How long will I love them is all I say because I will love them and everybody who has helped me forever and ever.

SMILING POEM

When I smile it’s because it’s you,

When I smile to you I am thinking of you,

When I smile to you it’s bring back all the memories I’ve had with you,

I smile with love at you,

I smile with joy with you,

I smile happily to make you happy,

I smile because you care,

I smile because you’re here,

I smile because I’m here with you,

I just love smiling without the tear or fear,

When I smile to you the atmosphere is clear and there is no fear,

I smile with you as I believe in you,

My smile will be with you,

My last smile will soon disappear without you,

My last smile will take the pain out of me with a tear and a fear,

My last smile will be with you,

Just smile with me when you’re in heaven,

Just smile with me as you’re here,

Just smile because we care,

Just keep smiling without a tear or fear.

SELF-HARMING POEMI took my razors away for a while,I stopped breathing I bled out with a burst full of tears,I couldn’t stop my problem of self-harming every day,I wish people would understand self-harming is not for attention, I used to do it,I’ve stopped now,I still can be very happy and lively one moment,But the next can be completely different for agesWhy couldn’t I ask for help?Why wouldn’t I listen to the helpers?My old hundreds of tiny red marks on my body, The hundreds of marks have disappeared, I was faced with an issue,Was it too late when I was asking for help?I used to say a typical line to most of my teachers,They used to say am I okay?I replied “Yeah I’m okay today, how are you?”But I didn’t want anyone to know about my life out of there lesson,Teachers who I know well and they knew me well mostly knew when I wasn’t happy,My smile stopped and made me not want to do anything just sit and cry by myself,I struggle to show my emotions at the time,I still reflect on what I have done,It’s okay to express your thoughts,Don’t let anyone stop you,So I had to tell them I was fine so they didn’t worry,No-one noticed until someone one day saw my marks,They asked Josh what they were, I quickly got out of the area where there were and busted into tears, for hours and hours,At this point I wanted my life to be over, quickly and done,Nobody likes people, who self-harm as they think it’s for attention seekers,It’s not self-harming is not a joke, You’re making the people weaker and weaker every time you say it’s for attention seekers,I’m making my life back on track now,I understand my friends, family and teachers care deeply about me and my future,I just want to keep everybody happy and keep the smile on my face,This changes me when I am not afraid to be honest.

TEACHERS POEMYou’re a good teacher that teaches me with love,You’re the teacher that who makes me grow my confidence every time I see you,You’re the teacher that makes everything go in my head and stay in my head andnot flow out,You’re the teacher that lets me work at my own speed as when I struggle I delay,You’re the teacher that listens and respects all my comments and thoughts,You’re the teacher, who makes a huge smile on my face,You’re the teacher that’s bright and always alert,You’re the teacher that cares,You’re the teacher that supports me,You’re the teacher I never want to lose contact with,You’re the one, who could be my teacher for all my lessons,You’re the one that makes the atmosphere alive,You’re like a family member to me,You’re the teacher that I would die for,You’re the one who I will never regret meeting,You’re the one, who’s changed my life,You’re the one, who’s made my life a better place,You’re the one making me look down too,You’re the teacher listening to me,You’re the teacher, who’s no longer here,You’re the one, who’s gone,You’re the one, who I’m joining soon,You’re the one, who nobody will forget about,You’re the one that will remind me of you and me of are times together,You’re the teacher, who I’m looking up to,You’re the teacher, who I hope to follow,You’re the teacher, who I cry to,You’re just the perfect teacher in my life forever and ever.

YOU SHUT THE DOOR POEMYou shut the door on me,You made me freeze,You made me cry,You made me alone,You made me disappear in the deep air, You made me feel depressed with a load of fear,You ruined my life,You shut the door,You locked me out,You changed the locks,You made me disappear for miles and miles,I cannot forgive you,You made me go far away,You opened the door but I was too late,I cannot forgive you for shutting the door,You made me just want to go and disappear for miles and miles,You made me go on a ferry to go far away,You made me shiver every night,You made me jump when I heard a noise on the streets,You made me weak,You made me full with fear,You won’t see me soon, You locked the doors and blocked them so I couldn’t get in,You made me freeze,Your making me die alone,You made me go and you felt at last but it’s too late,Now you’re singing and praying why did I lock the door and block me out?Just try and not let me alone again,Goodbye I have gone,Forever and ever.

MATHS POEMI try at maths,I cry when I get stuck with confusion,I practise more with my maths,I try to complicate myself sometimes,I cry when I get into a muddle of confusion,I never will get my Grade C in Maths,Am I going to stay in school forever?I just want to get my Grade C or higher in maths in my exam,I love my maths but I try and I cry,Does it make me feel bad when I try and I cry?I try my Maths skills to the highest I can,I try but I cry when I fail,In my maths exams I always create a huge mess and confusion,Am I going to pass my maths or not?I hope one day I will achieve my target of passing my maths as soon as I can,I need to improve on all the topics all the time,Because I need maths in my future from the next day of my life,Am I going to stay in school for the rest of my life?I just hope one day I will get my Grade C in Maths,I just want my grade so bad,I will hopefully have to forget about the shape and space in my future after my Grade C arrives.

ABOUT MY POETRY

Why did I write a poem about Autism?I decided to write a poem about “autism” as I know people who suffer from thislearning difficulty. It is more popular in boys than girls 3 times more likely out of 4 then girls. With autism you can get different people everybody with it is differentnobody is the same. Some people with autism also do not like being touched evenbeing hugged by their family member, friends or boyfriend or girlfriend. One in eightare diagnosed with autism in the United Kingdom. There is no cure for autism butthere is symptoms for autism for example some children with can take medication.

Most children with autism are not interested with other children. Children withautism can’t always tell how someone is feeling. They like stuff that is familiar withthem as I am familiar with a set routine that I keep too. Autism also stands forASD Autistic Spectrum Disorder. I also wrote this poem about autism as there is anautistic spectrum unit at my school I attend and there all lovely and caring people,they always care and respect what you say and are always happy for you to go andvisit and to speak to. I like speaking to them as they are such incredible people atwhat they do is outstanding they help and assist people all over the school even ifthey don’t suffer from autism. Autism is becoming more and more popular autismhas increased by 40% in the last ten years alone! Most children who attend schooland suffer from autism may be part of their Learning Support unit there school has.

Why did I write a poem about my smile?I decided to write a poem to do with my smile as I smile most of the time and I’malso full of joy at the same time. I think that my smile can make others happy whenthey are upset and for them to raise their heads and think bright and positive.

Some call my smiling annoying as majority of the time I smile because I like beingjoyful and a burst of happiness.

My smile also links into do with my learning problems I suffer from as I like to tryand forget about them and smile and think I am fine and like another person.

Why did I write a poem about Self-Harming?I wrote a poem about Self-Harming to let people know that Self-Harming is not ajoke and that people do not it for attention as there are a lot of people in societythat judge self-harmers attention seekers. I made a poem creating my side and pointof Self-Harming. In this poem it is based on a person who I know really well and thispoem is not about me. I do not wish to identify the person who this is about andbecause they don’t also want me too.

This poem also shows how a self-harmer feels and what can happen to them. I createdthis poem by asking one of my friends, research including books and internet etc.

Why did I write a poem about teachers?I wrote this poem about my best teacher although I did this I do not really have afavourite teacher or member of staff who’ve helped me, because all the members ofstaff who’ve helped me are all my favourite member off staff as they care, respect,listen about my thoughts and feelings when I am expressing them to the member ofstaff I know around my upper school I attended.

I also wrote this poem about teachers as I wanted to show members off staff at myschool what they done for me when I attend high school (upper school) since year 9until the end of year 11.

I wrote the poem about teachers and members off staff as there is a lot of pupilswho stereotype their teachers and judge them before they know them well enough.I agree with “Don’t judge a book by its cover”. So I wonder why people judge members off staff at schools before they know them and they must know a lotabout them.

I cannot thank my teachers and members of staff what they have done in helpingme for my GCSE’s and making me improve massively.

Why did I write a poem about a parent who shut the dooron their 18 year old child?I wrote this poem about a parent who shut the door on their child as one day as itwas their 18th birthday and that the parents thought she would be a responsibleadult so they packed her bags and put them outside the door outside the porch andthat she would be fine and would be okay to live alone as she was now 18.

The girl who was 18 she was explaining her feelings how she felt as soon as she feltonce her parents packed all her stuff together and she didn’t understand what wasgoing on and why.

The girl when she was 18 was explaining how she was feeling at an adult age of 18and then when she is older in life how she is still thinking and explaining it was fartoo late.

Why did I write a poem about Maths?I wrote this poem about Maths as I love Maths but obviously with everything youcan struggle, there are quite a few things I have always struggled with and some are:shape and space, algebra. Maths does challenge everybody’s skills and Maths is gettingharder and harder every year. I also worry if I will ever get my Grade C in Maths.On the other hand I hope to prove myself wrong and get my Grade C in Maths andI will keep pushing myself day in and day out throughout the whole way until I getat least a C in Maths.

BEDFORDSHIREONSUNDAY | 13 April 2014

JOSH WISE JOSH WISE Poetry BookPoetry BookCan this book inspire you?

Can this book make you have goose bumps?Can this book make you smile?If you think so - grab this book!

This book is a poetry book with a range of poemsby Josh Wise who is 15 years old and from Bedfordshire, United Kingdom.

In this book there are many different poemsJosh has written from January through to March2014, expressing his thoughts.

You might learn some facts about Josh you maynot know about him.

So do you know him well enough or not?

Reading this poetry will make you want to keepreading and want you to flick back through whatever your mood as it changes throughout the book.

Everything in this poetry book is all reserved and owned by Josh WiseAll Copyrights Reserved By Josh Wise - Printed by BEMAT Publications 2014