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CON
TENTS
DELUGE
Nightmare 6 | Death Drive 9 | Deathrow of
Hearts 10 | Six couplets running wild 13 | Silence
14 | Killer at the Drive In 20 | The ManipulativeMidget 24 | Again 26 | Nighttime Madness 29 |
1212 32 | Restless 35 | VAmpire 37 | Oblivious 47
| Silent Reverie 57 | Rebirth of the Unborn 62 |
Combustion 75 | Back in Kindergarten 76 | A waltz
with Mars 78
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TANGLAWAN
Wisho 2 | Bipolar 5 | Angelique 11| Blanko 12
| Pangarap na Mundo 16 | Seduksyon 18 |
Panaginip ng mahal kong Pilipinas 21 | Sa Aking
Paghihintay 22 | Salamin 31 | Tangay ng Hangin40 | Ang di inaasahang Pagkakataon 48 | Dude 49 |
Mnemosyne 51 | Tumatanga Tanga 52 | Tagahanga
53 | Silaw 54 | Eksena 59 | Sentimyento 60 |
Mga nakahaing kaganapan 64 | Pagtangis 68 |
Katahimikan 71 | Tatlong Mata 72 |
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BIPOLARby Gem Muzones
Lost in the corners of 8th avenue
Turn left to see the sunshine bloom
Turn right to face the night light gloom
Long gone the days of serenity
The giant of the cold hill awaits me
And here I am, drowning in uncertainty
The ghost pulls me back and forth
I find myself falling into the forgotten land
As I hold on to the tail of a vanishing reality
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Death Drive
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Deathrow ofHearts
Jed Belen
he bleeds endlesslyhe made up his mind and says
i will love you from afarhe meant it more that words could say
he cant hurt her
he cant touch her
she does not deserve him
he was hell
he gave her 3 shots in the head
stabbed her gentle heart
marinated in his own bloodhe weeps silently and says
i will love you from afar
he meant it more than words can
say
he cant win her
he cant kill her
say goodbye
dig him a shallow grave
pray for him tonight
he spends the rest of his life
clouded by remorse
hiding in these shadows
where darkness is a comfortwhere pain can feast on his immortal
heart
that is what he deserves
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KillerattheDriveInJed Belen
He trembles
he falls under her mercy
Shes just who she is
nothing more beyond that hollow exterior
she kills him
again and again
hes too dazed to even feel
its his time to kill
a shot fired
she starts to feel cold
colder than these eyes
eyes that speak of it all
eyes that see the silence
of a nuclear bomb about to kick in fast
she falls
she falls
at least he hopes so
for now.
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ni Direk Bianx
Ilang oras ng naghihintay,
sa munting bangkong inuupuaan.Madami ng nasaksihan,
sa pagpasok ng mga tao.
May tumatakbo,nagtatawanan,
at ang ilan ay mag-isang naglalakad.
Pumapasokt labas, umuupot tumatayo,
ngunit akoy nandito parin habang naghihintay sa iyo.
Pinagmamasdan ko ang mga kotse,
mula sa aking kinalalagyan.Inaasahan kong ikaw na ang masisilayan.
Ilang oras pa ako maghihintay?
ako bay mabibigo sa aking paghihintay?
Kaya ito nalang ang pakatatandaan mo,
Darating ang panahon na magkikita muli tayo.
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TheManipulativeMidgetThe midget in my chest keeps jumping and teasingWith all his might he tries to break it open for the lightning
Dont pull back, he shouts in complete disarray
You might regret it come one morning, I say
To fall asleep in the tender breath of the moonlight
Dropping endlessly to the pit of your heavens light
Should i dare to fall or grab on to oh dear life?
Oh God! Help me, my mouth has failed to bite
This world I once cursed before i existed
Now Im back, all ready to explore and be haunted
Lets just hope this time around I wont fail to find my place
The midget has made me his new puppet in a maze
-Gem Muzones
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Againby Sarita de Guzman
Another ordinary day has passed, laborious tasks given, arduous lessons
to be learned and amidst the hustle and bustle of the crowd, I sat there as hourshad gone, my back crouched, aching against the cold metal chair. My cropped
hair sticking at the back of my neck as beads of sweat trickled from my forehead
down to the rest of my exhausted body. Eyes and head hurting, as books started
to pile up my table. My palms sweating, hurriedly writing notes in an attempt to
meet deadlines. Papers, pens and notebooks scattered everywhere, reminding me
to at least fix my things before going home to unwind. But then again, maybe I
dont even have the time to unwind after all.
At last, for what seemed like an eternity, I put my pen down and carefully
scanned my work. Satisfied and proud enough, I stretched my tired and sweat-
ng body, jokingly praying for a miracle to help me with my ordeals. And at that
fleeting moment, as if God has answered my prayer. I saw it. I saw everything.
My miracle. My answer. I saw you.
You were there again, on your usual spot. Your obsidian eyes gazing up
at the crimson sunset, your short hair softly caressed by the wind, blowing your
fresh, cool scent towards me. Your gorgeous physique leaning at the wall non-
chalantly.
I sat there transfixed, amazed, by how you could make me feel happiness,
anger, desperation, passion, devotion, insecurity, loneliness and even that tin-
gling sensation at the pit of my stomach all at one single moment, by just looking
at you. Yet you stood there, coolly, unaffected, unaware. Unaware of an existence
of a silly little girl, dreaming. Dreaming, on what it feels like on you looking at
me, acknowledging me, or your soft touch against my calloused hands, or even
f impossible, you loving me back.
And then, as if by instinct, you sensed my eyes on you, you lowered your
gaze and looked straight at me and smiled, your perfectly charming smile. My
heart melted at that precise moment, fighting the urge to blush as you effortlessly
started walking towards my direction. But no, it must be at the girl at my back,
thinking, as I lowered my head to hide the pain in my eyes. I started to pack my
things, but stopped short as a shadow blocked my desk. Startled, I looked up,shocked, as I saw you there standing in front of me, still smiling. I opened my
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mouth to speak, but nothing came out, it seems that I was in a loss for words, for
I could still hear my heart pounding in my ears. I felt my cheeks heat up, I knew
I looked stupid. I tensed, thinking of the words, trying to break the awkward si-
lence enveloping us, but you beat me to it.
Hi, Ive been meaning to talk to you. You said, your beautiful voice lingeringn my ears. While I sat there flabbergasted, recalling every word you uttered
to make sure that I heard it correctly. R-really? But how? I mean I-I n-never
thought you knew me. I stammered surprised by the bluntness of my words.
Well I never really knew you, but I just cant stop noticing you, Youre cute.
Blushing madly, I muttered Um t-thank you. I smiled. Especially when you
smile.
So do you mind telling me your name? you interrupted before my face could
go on a darker shade. Oh, um s-sure Im
Excuse me miss are you alright? Huh? I asked, half dazed, half shocked.
You dropped your book you said indifferently. Oh, thanks I said, as you
made your way towards your friends, not even bothering to listen to what I said. I
picked up the book that was sprawled open on the floor. Hmm I sighed, smiling
sadly. Must be my imagination, again.
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Nighttime madnessGem Muzones
I was walkingDown the deserted path
With the three dimensional sphere
Shining so bright
Dazzling my blinded sight
Tiny dots glitter in the dark
Like the dewVisible in my face
Twinkling the sorrow I felt
With forever gone
My solitary existence shone
Brightly until it faded slowly
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Ako si Lex,
May best riend ako. Katulad ko siya, tamad, gala, chaka, Hindi pala-kausap sa iba.
Ewn a ung a it naging ai igan o siya. Mataga na rin aming nagsasama,
19-taon na rin. Sa 19 na taon na yon, hindi lilipas ang araw na di kmi nagkikita.
Pano kasi, pareho kaming tinataboy sa pamilya. May magagawa pa nga ba kami
un i magsama. Ma a ang ami mag-away ni Ju e. Hin i asi a o nag co-com-
ment sa tuwing nag-iinarte siya sakin eh. Tahimik lang, taimtim akong nakiki-
nig. Pero a o agi ang inaasa an non, a o na ung may gusto siyang c i s na
porma an. Tinutu ungan o mag-ayos yun. Ma i ig o nga yun iruin. Gwapotayo pare,tayo hahabulin. Eto ako. May ka-hambugang taglay! Naalala ko tuloy
nang sa ay aming ma-in a ...
Cin y. Ang a aeng ma a yosa sa agan a an. Tag ay niya ang aurang, in i
araniwan. Classmate namin siya ni Jude sa English non. Tinuturuan nga niya
ami dahil bopol kami sa lingwaheng ingles. Dun nahulog ang luob ko kay Cin-
y. Saga asi sa uto ang a aitan. Eto si Ju e, a a! May tayp in pa a sa ase.
Pangalan ay Sin. Sabay naming niligawan sina Cindy at Sin. Sabay din naman
aming sinagot. Ngunit umipas na ang a awang taon ng pagsasama namin,
nag-ara sa La Sa e sina Cin y at Sin nang tumungtong sa o e iyo. Pawangmag-bespren din tulad namin ni Jude ang turingan nong dalawang yon. Sabay
silang nakahanap ng lalaking ipapalit sa ka-pogian namin ni Jude. Labis kaming
nag am am. La o si Ju e. Hin i ma amove-on. Tinamaan e . Hin i ma a ing
tanggapin sa sarili ko na nagkaroon na ng iba si Cindy, pero nakaya ko.. Pero si
Jude.. Halos ikamatay ang pagkawala ni Sin. Minsan nalang kami magkita da-
i ayaw niya, gustong mapag-isa ang rama niya. Sina yan o. Pero nagu at
ako nang di na pumapasok si Jude. Hinahanap ko siya. Nawawala.. Nagulat ako
sa a itang nag- igti si Ju e.. Sa ma i im niyang warto,sa oo ng anyo, sa
tapat ng sa amin,ti a in i Ma ita ang rep e syong ni Ju e sa sa amin sapag atinalot ng dilim. nagiwan si Jude ng notang:
Sa pagtahak ko ng sirang daan patungo kay Sin,nahanap ko ang dilim. Ikaw
ai igang A ex ay nan ito, pero sa i im, in i a o na ita.. in i napigi an.. Sa
pagbukas ng liwang Lex, makikita moko. Patiwarik na nagsusumamo.. Paalam
Lex, a ing mata i na ai igan. Ngayon a oy umisan na, ma u ura a na rin..
Nagmamahal..
Ju e Alexis M. Rama
orn:Aug.26, 1889Died: Nov. 6. 2008
n ernan ez
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212DJ Faner
Take away all these inhibitions
Roll up your sleeves and rest your head
Scream in ecstasy as your tongue
Play with these knives of desire
I fell to my knees with sheer pleasure
As you run your fingertips on my forehead
Your skin is poisonous yet I cant stop caressing it
I tasted blood when I kissed your lips
Heaven fell on the ground when you met my gaze
Voices start to wander in the cornerAs you whispered the word of death
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RestlessGem Muzones
I search for your face amidst the crowd
Caught in a distant memory of yesterday
I hold on to the picture of your smile
In the corners of my lost mind
I try to reach for your cold hands in the darkness
Lets escape to our own world of eternal serenity
Blinded by the light, I lost you
Dont let go, hold tight, youre safe
The silence of the night deafens the music of your voice
Oh how I want to see you face to face!
We will float on to the depths of the dim frozen waters
Make me a time machine, back to yesterday
Bring me to the moment, the moment that was ours
No words need to be spoken, oh how our silence created bliss
Im addicted, Im addicted to the drug that is you
The sensation of your coldness
Brings me warmth, Im burning
Your sweet scent of nothing, keeps me alive
Youre so unkind, theres no one to blame but you
Oh how I cant wait to see you once again
Lets keep this our little secret
For they are foolish people
Come to me and I shall love you dear
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Nakangiti sya
Hindi ako kumakain ng gulay. Vegetarian ako.
Dinura ni Mellow ang isang subong kumpitis sa plato.
Bakit kasi hindi mo sinabi agad na gulay pala ito!
ugtong nya.
Eh, hindi ko rin naman inaasahan na darating ka. Kasal mo ngayon diba?
Sagot ni Jihan na kanina pa nagtataka kung saan nanggagaling ang matamis naamoy na bumalot sa kanyang hardin.
Dalawang linggo na ang nakalipas mula nang padalhan ni Mellow ng isang men-
sahe tangay ng hangin si Jihan. sambit dito ang mga katagang: Oi punta ka sa
Myerkules dalawang linggo mula ngayon. May kasalan.
Tinandaan ni Jihan ang mensahe.
Paano mo nalamang kasal ko ngayon?Dinukot ni Mellow ang isang plastik ng Doris sa kanyang backpack. Paborito
nya ito mula pa nuong mga bata sila.
Myerkules. sabi ng hangin Myerkules.
Hindi Tumatayo si Jihan sa bangkong kanyang kinauupuan subalit patuloy ang
kanyang ilong sa paghahanap kung saan nanggagaling ang matamis na amoy.
Tsong Martes lang ngayon.
Sabi ni Mellow.
Naka wedding gown ka kaya.
Pumaling sya sa kanan
Matagal na katahimikan. Tumayo si Jihan at binuksan ang pintuang screen upang
pumasok sa loob ng bahay nya. Lumagabog ito pag sara. Kumalog ang isang pic-
ture frame na nakasabit sa ibabaw ng pintuan. Napansin ito ni Mellow.
Oy, Naitago mo pa pala to?Alin? Pasigaw na sagot ni Jihan habang Nagsasalin ng salabat sa tatlong
baso.
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Yung picture nating dalawa nung highschool graduation.
Ah, oo. Bakit, yung kopya mo nasan na?
Hindi sumagot si Mellow.
Tinulak ni Jihan ng balikat ang pinto para lumabas. Bitbit nya ang isang tray na
may nakapatong na tatlong baso ng umuusok na salabat.Di ka na sumagot. Sabi ko nasan na yung kopya mo.
Umupo si Mellow sa sahig. Sa paanan ng isang puno ng kaimito. Wala paring
kibo.
Hindi mo na alam kung nasaan noh?
Nilapag ni Jihan ang tray sa sahig sa harap ni Mellow. Sabay umupo rin sya sa
harap nito.
Umungol sya
Bakit tatlo yang baso? Eh dalawa lang tayo dito?
Malayo ang tanaw ni Mellow.
Kay Jared yan. Hindi ba sya dadaan dito? Hindi ka ba nya susunduin?
Buntong hininga.
Ayoko nito Jihan. Ayoko sana nito.
Buntong hinga ulit.
Walong taon na nang unang ipakilala ni Mellow si Jared kay Jihan. Mabigat.
Pero kailangan. Hindi na umuubra ang mga bagay sa pagitan ni Mellow at Jihan.
Dumating pa si Jared. Lalong nagkaron ng maraming komplikasyon.
Sa kabila ng lahat, Buo parin ang puso ni Jihan. Para kay Mellow.
Kay Mellow lang.
Tinawag nya ang isang pangalan
Hindi mo naman sinagot yung tanong ko Mellow eh.
Teka, ano bato?
Salabat
Ay, Vegetarian ako eh.
Galing sa luya yan. Gulay.Hindi ako kumakain ng gulay. Vegetarian ako. Simula pa nung.. nung huli tay-
ong magkita
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Simula pa nung isang taon?
Pagtataka ni Jihan.
Ganon na ba katagal? parang kailan lang.
Sagot ni Mellow.
Patindi ng patindi ang matamis na amoy.
Tsong hindi dadating si Jared. Hindi nya ko susunduin.
Tumayo si Mellow. Nag-unat.
Nanatiling nakaupo si Jihan.
Ang ganda ng gown mo. Anong material yan?
Retaso dude. saka ano.. Dyaryo. Nilagayan ata ni Waggy to ng.. ah oo nga.
nilagyan nya to sa laylayan ng pink na ribbon.. kaso, nawawala ata. sumabit
siguro sa jeep kanina.Nakatitig si Jihan kay Mellow. Walang kurap. Namamangha. Kung papaanong
ang isang bagong kasal na babae ay nakukuhang maggala at umasal ng ganito..
Pero. gusto nya ito. Gusto nyang nandito si Mellow. Wala syang ibang gusto
kundi ang makasama ito.
Nakatingala sya. Walang kibo. Pinagmamasdan ang walang kupas na kaganda-
han.
Kasal na ako Jihan. Sa isang hindi ko inaasahan. Sa isang akala koy hindi
ako ipaglalaban.. Wala si Jared. Hindi sumipot.. At saka, wala namang barong
yon..
Nadurog ang puso ni Jihan.
Kinasal ako sa ibang lalaki. Vegetarian din sya kaya ko sya pinakasalan.
May pumatak na luha
Humigop si Jihan ng salabat. Upang magkunwaring dahil sa init at paso ang pa-
gluluha. Tahimik. Kapwa nakatingin sila sa malayo.
Mellow.. Hindi mo man lang ba ako naisip?
Kailan?
Bago ka magpakasal dun sa kung sino man.. Saka pagkatapos nyong maghiwa-
lay ni Jared.
Hindi parin sila tumitingin sa isat isa.Aah.. Hindi ko nga alam kung nasan na si Jared. Basta Sabi nya, pupunta lang
daw sya sa CR. Tapos nawala na..
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Umupo ulit si Mellow sa Tabi ni Jihan. Pero hindi parin sila nagtitinginan.
Hinanap mo ba sya?
Si Jared? Hindi.. Kahit naman nung una hindi ko sya hinanap. Kusang dinala
ng hangin sakin.. Kahit minsan, ayoko nang saluhin, Wala akong magawa kundi
sumabay sa ihip..
Humigop ulit si Jihan ng salabat.
Tumayo si Jihan. Lumapit sa pintuan upang abutin ang picture frame. Tinitigan
nya ito upang alalahanin ang mga magagandang pangyayaring dumaan sa kanila
ni Mellow. Subalit habang tinititigan nya ito at binabagtas ng mga mata nya ang
larawan ay tila napupuno ito ng makapal na usok. Puti. Unti-unting lumalabo ang
maheng matagal nang nakalimbag sa papel...
Sinubukang tanggalin ni Jihan ang usok. Hinipan nya. Pinunasan.. Walang epe-
kto.. Di nagtagal ay nabura na ang larawan.. Hindi nya maintindihan ang nang-yayari.
Lumingon sya kay Mellow...
Nakatingin ito ng deretso sa kanya.
Nakangiti.
Nakangiti habang dahan-dahang lumalabo ang kanyang mukha...
Mellow, wag ka nang umalis ulit..
Nakangiti parin ito.. umiiyak si Jihan.. Nabubura ang mukha ni Mellow.. Dahan-
dahan..
Hindi naman kita iniwan Jihan.. Aalis lang ako sandali.. sandali lang..
Nakangiti..
Wag na Mellow.. nakikiusap ako.. wag na..
Matapang na matapang na ang matamis na amoy..
Tumihaya sya
Wala na ang mga mata ni Mellow, pati ang ilong at tainga.. Blanko. Puti.
Dinampot nya ang isang baso ng salabat. at sa mga labi nyang mapuputi ay
walang pakundangan nya itong ininom at inubos.
Vegetarian ka kamo ah? Gulay yan.. Bakit mo ininom?
Nagulat si Jihan.
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Mahirap para sakin itong ginawa ko. Nadaganan ako ng sangkatutak na pag-
babago mula nung hindi tayo magkita. Ipinalit ko sakin ang hindi naman dapat.
Para lang maging bagay sa lahat. Hindi kita ini...
May kalog na naramdaman si Jihan..
..Wan Jihan.. Nandito lang ako sa tabi mo. Pero hindi mo ako nakikita. Dahil..
dahil hindi ako nagpapakita..
Kumalog ulit.
Gamit ang kanang kamay ay dinampot ulit ni Mellow ang basong dapat sana ay
kay Jared..
Wala si Jared. Inumin ko na to ha.
Inubos ulit ni Mellow ang salabat.
Shet. Carnivorous na ko. ughh.
Walang humpay ang pagiyak ni Jihan. Hindi alam ang gagawin kung iiwan ulit
sya ni Mellow..
O pano.. Una na muna ako sayo ha.. hanggang sa susunod nalang..
Tuluyan nang nawala ang mukha ni Mellow subalit umamalingawngaw ang tinignya.
Nangingibabaw parin ang matamis na amoy.
Masaya ako nakita kita Mellow. Sa susunod ulit.. Ingat ka ha.
Tumalikod na si Jihan at pumasok sa bahay.. Subalit sumusunod parin sa kanya
ang matamis na amoy. Nakikita nya si Mellow sa gilid ng kanyang mata, at na-
kita nyang tumalikod narin ito upang sumakay ng jeep.
Wala na si Mellow. Walang nakakaalam kung saan sya makikita. Kung kailan
ulit sya
dadating. Sa isa pang pagkakataon, nabiyak ang puso ni Jihan.
Nagising sya
Napabalikwas si Jihan sa higaan. Pawis na pawis. Halatang mabilis ang tibok ng
kanyang puso. Deretso ang tingin.. Hindi Kumukurap. Hindi makapaniwalang
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Anim na taon na mula nang makita nyang naka wedding gown si Mellow at
nakaharap sa Altar. Habang sugatan ang puso nyang nakatanaw sa likod ng sim-
bahan.. Nagbuntong hininga sya. Napayuko. Naamoy nya ang matamis na hal-
amuyak na nasa ere ng silid. Tumingala sa kisame. Tumingin sa orasan.. Alas-
dos ng madaling araw. Maaga pa. Humiga ulit. Nakatitig sa kisame. Habang
lumilipad ang isip sa kawalan ay dinalaw ulit sya ng magkakahalong ala-ala.mga ala-alang nagpabago sa buhay nya. Pumaling sya sa kaliwa.
Tinitigan ang babaeng natutulog sa tabi nya. Inamoy ang matamis na halimuyak
ng kanyang kabiyak. Napangiti. at nagtaka. Nagtataka ngunit natutuwa. Kung
papanong ipinagpalit ni Mellow ang lahat.. Ang lahat lahat.. Maging ang sariling
kasal, para lang makasama sya.
wakas
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Beatrice Puertollanos
ObliviousDaughter of the golden moon
Lover of the silver sun
born unto the summer sky
sister of the fiery stars
the planets lined up
they had to see
as she gracefully arrives
heaven has fallen
yet she remains unaware
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Mnemosyneby Sarita de Guzman
The days of the month had ended. The scorching heat now replaced by the
pitter patter of raindrops. Yet, it is still mundane as I continue to get lost in a
memory that traps me in a melancholic reverie. Vivid just like it was yesterday.
Its been hours, yet not one beep had been heard from my phone. I
waited patiently, not a single complaint uttered. The crowd busy in their affairs,
lowly dissipating as tasks gets done. It was four oclock when things started
o get in shape. Not one detail was of anything that I planned it to be, but it was
one of those few events that would have me smiling at the end of the day. We
at there, unhurriedly taking a sip of our coffee, oblivious to the irritating blab-
bers of the old ladies a table away from us. Tummies ached as we shared doses
of laughter. Palm against palm, the corners of my lips slowly twitching into a
mile as our simple chit chat becomes more momentous. All adversities lay in
he back of our minds for the time being. The nearby signs have already been
lit up, emblazoned in striking letters and the dried coffee stains on the crum-
pled tissue, both telling that time had finally caught with us. We were already
tifling our yawns, yet I was still reluctant to take a cab, hiding my urgent need
o get home. Unspoken questions hung in my head, afraid of ruining the mo-
ment, for this is the first and may also be the last.
I open my eyes as I slowly drift to reality, still pondering if all that
would ever happen again. It was not much nor was it even the greatest thought
o ever grace me. Yet, it was enough to brighten up my mood on a stormy day.
A time when I had heaven in my hands. With everything that has happened, Iknow that moment will never come my way again and will only remain as a
memory. But forever, it will be etched within and no one will ever be able to
ake it away from me.
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Silent reverieJumping to the endless pit of doom
Darkness starts to loomShadows in my room
Shine and sparkle in the gloomAs they dance and sway like ballerinas
With the wind laughing like hyenas
How dare you awaken me from my blessed oblivion?
Hush, hush says thesilent dream,Open your eyes to the enchanted,
the kaleidoscope world of butterflies.
-Zipporah Antonio
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Rebirth of the unbornBeatrice Puertollano
let darkness fall..let fear take over..
she is yet to come..
she listens to each lament and keeps it in her
heart,fragile but strong..
trying not to fall apart.
she is neither the queen of the martyrs nor thesavior of the damned,
she only wants to shed some light.
one could only wish,
for she will deliberately hear..
but she is not the one to fulfill.
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