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INkhosi ikubusise, Mnaketfu Neville.

Ngiyajabula kakhulu kubuya landlini yekukhontelakusihlwa. Ngishe livi kancanyana. UMlayeto lotse kuba mudzemanje ekuseni, futsi ngijabula ngempela kutsi Bewulapha,noko. Futsi ngaWujabulela nami, kuWuletsa, futsi ngiyetsembanikujabulele kuWuva. [Libandla litsi, “Ameni.”—Umhl.]2 Ningakohlwa manje, hlalani nikhumbula loku, kutsi letitintfo letakha inceku yaKristu. Niyabona, lukholo kucala, besekuba ngemandla. Futsi manje khumbulani, uMoya loyiNgcweleungeke uvale etulu indlu yaNkulunkulu tize letintfo letitisebente ngeMoya. Akunandzaba kutsi wentani, niyabona. Letotintfo letakha uMtimba waKristu, niyabona, letotintfo. Manje,ningakukhohlwa loko, kutsi loku lapha kwekucala, kukholwakwakho. Emandla, lwati, nalokunjalo, kufanele kwengetwekuko, kute kutsi umumo lophelelisiwe waKristu ubonakaliswe,bese-ke uMoya loyiNgcwele ufika etikwawo bese uwubekaluphawu njengeMtimba lowodvwa. Letintfo tifanele tibe khona.Ngako-ke, Jesu watsi, “Batiwa ngesitselo sabo.” Niyabona,sitselo! Bewungeke utsele sitselo ngaphandle kwaletintfotisitsele kuwe. Bese-ke uma konkhe loku kutsatsa indzawoyekwelive ne—nekungamesabiNkulunkulu, nalokunjalo, khona-ke konkhe kungakholwa kuyakhishwa, bese tonkhe tintfo telivetiyendlula, bese kungabikho lutfo kuphela sidalwa lesishakuKristu. Futsi-ke base Efesu 4:30 kutsi, “NingamdzabukisiuMoya loyiNgcwele waNkulunkulu, lenabekwa luphawu ngayekute kube-lusuku lwekuhlengwa kwenu.” Nabekwa luphawueMbusweni waNkulunkulu! Manje, ningakukhohlwa loko.Kugcineni emcondvweni loko manje, kutsatsa letintfo letikucala. Khona-ke kubekwa luphawu kunguMoya loyiNgcwele,siValo lesisivala ngeluphawu eMtimbeni. Kulungile.3 Sinesi—sicelo manje saDzadzewetfu Little, wase Chicago,umyeni wakhe ubesengotini yemoto futsi ulele nje usedvutenekufa, Dzadzewetfu Little. NaEdith Wright, dzadzewetfulomncane lapha lesesatane naye sikhatsi lesidze, ukabi, kabikabi, ekhaya lakhe kusihlwa, futsi bebafuna kutsi niyatilapha ebandleni kute sonkhe sikhuleke kanyekanye mayelananalesicelo. Futsi manje asikhotsamise tinhloko tetfu umzuzwananje.4 Babe wetfu waseZulwini, loligugu lelikhulu, sibutsenesitungelete (ngekukholwa) siHlalo sebukhosi saNkulunkulu,futsi sicela umusa waNkulunkulu ngaleticelo leti. UMnaketfuLittle, ingoti yemoto, usedvute nekufa. Nkulunkulu, msite.Kwangatsi uMoya loyiNgcwele ungaba seceleni kwembhedze

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wakhe futsi umbuyise emuva kitsi, Nkhosi. Na Edith Wrightlomncane entansi lapho, ngiyakhuleka, Nkulunkulu, kutsiuMoya loyiNgcwele utawuba ngaseceleni kwembhedze wakhekusihlwa futsi utambuyisela impilo yakhe kuye futsi. Siphekona, Babe. Utetsembisile letintfo leti, futsi siyatikholwa. Futsinjengoba besicabanga namuhla ekuseni, kutsi libanga alisholutfo kuWe, Umkhulu nje kulenye incenye yelive njengobaUnjalo nakulenye, ngoba Usetindzaweni tonkhe, unemandlaonkhe, futsi awunasiphetfo. Futsi siyakhuleka, Babe, kutsiUtawusipha leticelo ngeliGama laJesuKristu. Ameni.5 Ngijabula kakhulu kuphindza ngibekhona kusihlwa,ku…Futsi ngiyati kuyashisa. Lena yimihlangano lemitsatfulecondzile, futsi ku…Ngiyati labanye benu banemamayelalangemakhulu lasihlanu labatowashayela phakatsi kwamanjenasekuseni. Futsi kucala elangeni lelilandzela lakusasa,nginemakhulu lalishumi nakune lengitawashayela emvakwaloko. Ngako, ngako nge-ngetsemba kutsi bekusikhatsilesikhulu senu nonkhe. Futsi bekusikhatsi lesikhulu samikutsi nginivakashele. Yinye kuphela intfo lesiyicelile, banengikakhulu labatobuyiselwa emuva ngoba ayikho indzawo,singeke siminyetelane kakhulu kulomkhatsi wetitulo, umnyangoweticimamlilo ungeke ume uthule ngalokho. Ngako siyetamamanje kutfola indlu yekukhontela letse gcagca, kute kutsi umasisekhatsi, futsi sikhone kuba nendzawo yekuhlala bantfu.6 Futsi manje, noma nini, uhlala njalo wemukelekilelapha etabernakeli, lapho site khona sivumokholo kodvwaKristu, akukho mtsetfo kodvwa lutsandvo, akukho ncwadzikodvwa liBhayibheli. Futsi ngako…Futsi umfundzisi wetfunguMnaketfu Orman Neville lapha. Futsi sinelibandla laphale—lebantfu labanengi lababutsana ekhatsi njengelitabernakelilenhlanganisela yemabandla lehlukahlukene, lapho uta khonalapha ukhonte Nkulunkulu ngekwetiyalo tanembeza wakho.Sihlala njalo sikutfokotela kuba nawe. Futsi ngako wotauma ungakhona kuphumelela, sihlala njalo sikutfokotelakukwamukela.7 Futsi manje sikhatsi lesilandzelako, ngekwati kwami, kubanani, siyawuba emva kwekuphela kwendlu yekukhontela.Futsi ngifuna kuba-ke, emvakwemiNyaka yeliBandla, sifunakuhamba-ke siye etiMphawini letisikhombisa tekugcina,netiMphawu letisikhombisa tekugcina eNcwadzini yeSambulo,kufundzisa Loko.8 Futsi manje kunetikhatsi letinengi lapho labagulakonalabakhatsatekile befika, futsi tisachubeka letinkonzo,lapho imibono idzingeka khona, nalabetela nje kubonanangetingcociswano letingakavami. Uma ngingena kuloko, lapho-ke ngi—angikhoni nje kutfola umehluko emkhatsini wabo, futsi,cha, kulukhuni kimi kukhuluma emvakwaloko. Futsi wonkheumuntfu uyakwati loko emikhankhasweni yetfu yekuphulukisa,

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kutsi uMnu. Baxter kumbe lomunye ngalokujwayelekileuyashumayela, bese ngiphumela kukhulekela labagulako, ngobanje kuyakhatsalisana kancane. Futsi bengikhulekela labanyebantfu emizuzwini lembalwa leyendlulile, ngase-ke ngihlangananemntfwana lomncane lapha bodokotela…lokutsite emhlanewako, kutalwe ngalenye indlela. Mangiphuma, ngikubonekuhleti lapho ensimbini lebunjiwe. Loyomntfwana angekeasakhubateka kanjalo, kutawuphila. Impela, kutawubanjalo,niyabona. Loko, ngiyakwati loko. Niyabona, ngicinisekilengaloko. Ngako sifuna kuba nekukholwa kwetfu futsisimkholwe Nkulunkulu.9 Ngamunye wenu, futsi linengi lenu litihambi kimi,bonkhe labafundisi nalokunjalo. Uma ngingaphosisi, lonanguMnaketfu Crase. Ngabe kunjalo? Mnaketfu Crase, ngi—ngifanele ngicolise kuwe, ngekungenyukeli lapho ngesikhatsikubusiswa. Mhlawumbe ngitakwenyukela lapho ngitele inkonzoyangemphelasontfo, khululeka nje. Ngabe kunjalo? EnhlaeBloomington. Nichuba kahle? Kuhle. Labanye balabanaketfulapha babafundisi, ngiyetsemba. Ungumfundisi? Yebo,mnumzane. INkhosi ikubusise. Futsi bangakhi bafundisi laphaendlini, ake sibone sandla sakho. Yebo, loko kuhle impela.Siyatfokota kuba nani lapha, siyajabula kakhulu. Nkulunkuluanibusise njalo!10 Manje, kute siphume sikhatsi sisekahle impela, labanyebabo baya eGeorgia, eTennesee, eNew York, ndzawo tonkhe,kusukela namuhla kusihlwa, kucala namuhla kusihlwa. Manje,nishayele ngekucophelela emgwacweni. Uma wetela, ungafunikuya e-motel, paka eceleni kwemgwaco bese uyalala uze…Yindlela lengenta ngayo. Niyabona, vele ushayele uphumeleeceleni ulale. Musa, musa kushayela wetela. Kuyintfo lembi.Futsi, khumbulani, akusiwe, ngulona lomunye umngamulekufanele umbhasobhe. Niyabona? Wena uyati kutsi uyaphi,awumati kutsi yena uyaphi, ngako—ngako kufanele umbhasobheloyomngamu. Ngako, ciniseka kutsi ucaphele ngasosonkhesikhatsi, kukubhasobha.11 Manje, ngifisa kufundza kusihlwa incenye yemBhalolotfolakala ngale eNcwadzini yaJohane loNgcwele. Manje,lemiBhalo lemincane lesiyifundzako futsi sitsatsisele kuyo,yekutsi isinikete sisekelo saloko lesitama kukusho. Futsi njalo,angikate nangasinye sikhatsi, njengoba ngikhumbula nanini,kwekuta nanini epulpiti, kutsi ngitame kusho intfo nje kutsiishiwo. Ngetama njalo kulindza, ngibheke, ngifundzisise,ngikhuleke, ngite ngive kutsi nginalokutsite lokutawusitabantfu. Uma ngingakhoni kuba lusito, lapho-ke asikho sidzingosami sekutsi ngime lapha, niyabona. Kutsi, ngitame kusita! Futsimanje kusihlwa, kusobala, incenye letse kuba yinkhulu yesicukusetfu iphumile namuhla ekuseni, futsi badzingeke baye ekhaya,labanengi babo. Kodvwa, namuhla ebusuku, nginitjelile uma

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nihlalile sitozama kutsi sibe nje cishe nenkhulumo yemizuzulengemashumi lamane-nesihlanu ngalokutsite lengetsembakutsi kutasisita. Futsi sitawusekela loku manje kuJohaneloNgcwele, sahluko 16, futsi asicale cishe e—evesini 7 lesahluko16, futsi sifundze njalo kuye e—evesini 15.

Kodvwa mine nginitjela liciniso lekutsi; Kunilungelekutsi ngihambe: ngoba uma ngingahambi,uMdvudvuti akayikuta kini; kepha uma ngihamba,ngiyawumtfumela kini.Lapho sekafikile, utawucondzisa live ngesono,

nangekulunga, nangekwahlulela:Ngesono, ngoba bangakholwa ngimi;Ngekulunga, ngoba ngiya kuBabe, ningabe

nisangibona;Ngekwahlulela, ngoba umbusi walelive wahlulelwe.Ngisenalokunengi lengifanele nginitjele kona, kodvwa

ningeke nikhone kukwetfwala manje.Kepha nca, uMoya weliciniso, sekefikile yena,

uyawuniholela kulo lonkhe liciniso: ngobaakayikukhuluma ngekwakhe; kodvwa loko lakuvako,uyawukukhuluma: futsi utanikhombisa tintfo letitako.Ngaloko-ke, utangikhatimulisa: utawumukela

lokukwami, bese unikhombisa kona.Tonkhe tintfo Babe lanato—lanako kwami: ngako-

ke ngitsite Mine, kutsi utawutsatsa lokukwami, beseunikhombisa kona.

12 Manje kulelivesi 13. “Kepha uma uMoya weliCinisosekefikile, Utaniholela kulolonkhe liCiniso. Uma uMoyaweliCiniso sekefikile, Utaniholela kulolonkhe liCiniso.”Yini liCiniso? Livi. “Ngoba Uyawukhuluma, AkayokhulumangekwaKhe; kodvwa loko Lakuvako, Uyawukukhuluma. LokoLakuvako, Uyawukukhuluma.” Ngalamanye emagama, nguYeLoyokwembula lentfo, niyabona. Futsi sahluko 4 semaHeberu,liBhayibheli lasho kutsi “Livi laNkulunkulu liyakhalipha,linemandla kunenkemba lesika-tinhlangotsi totimbili, la—laHlulela imicabango yengcondvo, inhlitiyo.” Niyabona, “LokoLakuvako, Utakukhuluma, futsi Utanikhombisa tintfo letitako.”Niyabona? Kutakwentiwa yini loko? UMoya loyiNgcweleLoyofika eGameni leNkhosi Jesu.13 Futsi ngitsandza kutsatsa lemizuzu lembalwa lelandzelakokutsi nike ninake ligama “hola,” UMholi. Niyati, ngikengehlelwa ngulokutsite impela lemahlatsini. Umholi,ngumuntfu lotokukhombisa indzawo. Ufanele ube nemholi umaungati lapho uya khona. Futsi njengoba ngikujwayele kutingela,nasemhlabeni wonkhe, ngibe ne—nelitfuba lekuhlangananebaholi. Futsi ngingumholi, lucobo lwami, eColorado, ngenca

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yekwati kwami live, kufuywa kwetinkhomo, njalo njalo,ngingahola eColorado.14 Manje, umholi ufanele ayati indlela. Ufanele ati kutsi uyaphinekutsi wentani, nekutsi akunakekele kanjani emgwacweni.Niyabona? Ufanele abone kutsi awugcini ulahlekile. Umholingumuntfu lokhetsiwe. Hulumende uyamkhetsa loyomuntfuuma angumholi. Futsi, manje, ekuhambeni luhambo loluyaehlane, lapho mhlambe longakejwayeli kuya khona, akusiyointfo lenhle kuwe kuhamba ngaphandle kwamunye. Ecinisweni,letinye tindzawo ungeke ngisho uhambe ngaphandle kwakhe,sibonelo nje, eCanada. U—umholi kufanele asayine ilayisensiyakho leya kumphatsi wetinyamatane. Ufanele atisayine yenalucobo kuyo, futsi konkhe kutawubutwa kuye ngawe. Umakwenteka noma yini kuwe, kulicala lakhe. Ufanele akunakekele.Ufanele abone kutsi awulahleki. Ufanele aciniseke kutsiakakutfumeli ungene endzaweni tsite lapho ungeke uyati khonaindlela yakho yekubuyela emuva. Futsi uma ulahleka, ufanelealati kahle kamhlophe live kutsi avele nje akutsatse nomangasiphi sikhatsi. Ufanele atati tonkhe letintfo leti nomakungenjalo angeke abe ngumholi, angeke anikwe ilayisensiyekuba ngumholi.15 Ngoba letintfo leti, ngaletinye tikhatsi ufanele ubeke lilanga,ufike ngephambili bese wenta emalungiselelo, ubhukele kutsiukhishwe. Futsi uma lowakho…Ngaletinye tikhatsi uyagcwalafutsi angakwati kukutsatsa, ufanele ukuyekele kwesikhashana,loko—kwemholi wasemhlabeni. Awudzingi kutsi ukwente lokokuMholi waNkulunkulu, Uhlala alungele, uhlala alungele.16 Manje, uma ungawenti lamalungiselelo, futsi ube ucabangakutsatsa luhambo loluya ehlane lapho ungakate uye khonaphambilini, ungahle ugcine ulahlekile, futsi ubhubhe.Unelitfuba lelicishe libe liphesenti linye lekuphuma ehlane,loko makukutsi, uma lingakeni kakhulu, ungahle ube nelitfubalelilodvwa leliphesenti kutsi utiphumele uwedvwa. Kodvwauma kulihlane lelibi kakhulu, emuva le, ute litfuba lekuphuma.Ayikho indlela yekukwenta, ngoba utitfola sewuhamba luhambolwekufa, futsi-ke u—uphelile, khona-ke ayisekho indzaba yakho.Manje, futsi utawubhubha uma unganaye umholi lowati livefutsi lowatiko kutsi kubuyelwa kanjani emuva.17 Labanengi benu bayayati indzaba lebhaliwe lenayifundzangemnyaka lophelile eTucson, eArizona, lawomaVulandlelalabaFana. Naloku, bekaceceshelwe kwati kutsi batinakekelekanjani, bebangemavulandlela. Futsi bebangasiwo njeemaVulandlela lamaJuniya, bebangemavulandlela lagcwele.Futsi batsatsa luhambo lolwenyukela etintsabeni, futsikwafika siphepho selichwa, imvelo yantjintja simo sayo.Futsi ngesikhatsi batitfola sebalahlekile futsi bonkhebabhubha, kungoba ba…lokutsite, lushintjo lufika lusukaendleleni lejwayelekile, abatanga kutsi batawuphuma kanjani.

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Niyabona? Futsi ngiyabakhohlwa kutsi bebabangakhi labafanalebebakhona lababhubha lentsabeni, noma bebanetindizaletinaphephela emhlane, neMbutfo wetemphi lowaphuma,naboGadzi beSive, nebelusito lwekutitsandzela, nako konkhe.Kodvwa balahleka, akekho lowatiko kutsi bebakuphi. Futsiabakhonanga kutinakekela. Bonkhe babhubha echweningoba bebangati noma bebaya emphumalanga, enyakatfo,enshonalanga noma eningizimu, etulu noma phansi, nomakwakunjani, yonkhe intfo yayibukeka ifanana.18 Manje, umholi uyati kutsi ukuphi, kungakhatsaleki kutsisimo selitulu sinjani. U—ukuhlomele kwenta loko. Uyati kutsiwentani. Wati yonkhe intfo. Uyati kutsi konkhe kubukekakanjani, ngako angavele nje abe sebumnyameni futsi akwatikutsinta intfo letsite.19 Sibonelo nje, nali licebo lelidzala kumholi. Uyati, umaubona tinkhanyeti, noma ngubani angasho kutsi uyaphi umaatocaphela tinkhanyeti. Futsi uhlala njalo ufuna kucaphelainkhanyeti yinye yeliciniso. Yinye kuphela inkhanyeti yeliciniso,futsi leyo yinkhanyeti yenyakatfo. Niyabona, yinye kuphela,ima endzaweni lefanako. Loko kumele Kristu, longuyeitolo, namuhla, naphakadze. Labanye bangahle bazulazule,kodvwa Yena uhlala afana. Emabandla angakudvonsa uphumengalendlela, noma labanye bakudvonsa uphume ngaleyandlela;kodvwa hhayi Yena, Uhlala afana.20 Kuhle, manje, uma ungayiboni lenkhanyeti yasenyakatfo,futsi kunemafu, khona-ke uma utobhekisisa, uma kusemini futsiulahlekile, uma utawucaphela tihlahla. Sihlahla sihlala njalo,ingushane ingasesayidini lelingasenyakatfo yesihlahla, ngobalisayidi langaseningizimu yesihlahla litfola lilanga kakhulukunelisayidi langasenyakatfo. Kodvwa uma kumnyama-ke futsiungakhoni kubona ingushane-ke? Uma ungavala emehlo akhofutsi ungatami kwenta noma ngukuphi kucabanga, uvaleemehlo akho bese utfola sihlahla lesineligcolo lelitse kushelela,ubeke tandla takho titungelete sihlahla kanje imino yakhoite ihlangane, bese-ke ucala kuhamba utungelete lesosihlahlakancane impela. Futsi uma ufika endzaweni lapho ligcololicumbile mbamba, licheketekile, lelo lisayidi langasenyakatfo(imimoya), futsi ungasho kutsi nguyiphi indlela locondzekuyo, inyakatfo noma iningizimu. Futsi leyondlela, o, kukhonatintfo letinengi, kodvwa kutsatsa baholi kwati kutsi tentiwakanjani leto tintfo. Umuntfu lojwayelekile nje asukume laphoatsi, “Angiva mehluko kuko.” Niyabona? Niyabona, ufaneleuceceshelwe loko kuhola.21 Futsi labafana laba, akungabateki kephabebangemavulandlela lakahle, bebangawabopha emafindvo,bebangayibasa imililo ngemadvwala, nalokunye kanjalo.Kodvwa kwati indlela yakho yekuphuma, nguloyo umcondvo!

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Bona, bona abayatanga indlela yabo yekuphuma, ngako-kebonkhe babhubha ngoba abatange bahambe nemholi.22 Babe longacabangi, eminyakeni lemibili leyendlula,eColorado, o, bekahamba akhuphuka aya entsabeni,bekanemfanyana lotsi akabe nesitfupha, iminyaka lesikhombisabudzala. Bekatomtsatsa amyise ekutingeleni kwakhe tindluzelakwekucala. Ngako bakhuphukela etulu entsabeni, nemfanyanawatsi kuyise, “Ngiyakhatsala.”23 “Mema emhlane wami. Asikakhuphukeli etulungalokwenele, tindluzela tisetulu.” Yachubeka njalo njaloyahamba indvodza yate yefika…Beyingati, beyiyindvodzayasedolobheni. Yayingati lutfo mayelana nekutsi kutingelwakanjani noma kuhanjwa kuphi. Noma ngumuphi umuntfulowati noma yini ngelihlane uyati kutsi indluzela ayihlalietulu kakhulu. Atenyukeli lapho. Timbuti tihlala etulu lapho,hhayi indluzela. Tisentasi lapho tingadla khona, tifaneletiye lapho kukhona khona letitokudla. Futsi, ngako, kephalendvodza yacabanga, “Uma ngikhuphukela le emadvwalenindzawanatsite etulu lapho, ngitotfola inyamatane lenkhulu.”Bekabone sitfombe salenye ime etikwe—ime etikwelidvwala,futsi wacabanga kutsi kulapho atoyitfola khona. Ungakunakiloko lokufundvwa kumamagazini, he, o, he, utawuba neliphupholelesabisako! Kutsi, yinye kuphela intfo longayenta, kutsatsaumholi lapho wati khona kutsi ukuphi.24 Futsi loyobabe, kwavele kwafika imvula khona masinyaneetulu lapho, lenye yaletozimvula letisheshako lefikako. Futsiindvodza yatingela kwate kwahamba sikhatsi kakhulu, kwatekwaba mnyama futsi yangabe isakwati kutfola indlela yayoyekubuyela emuva. Futsi i…imimoya yase ifika incamulaesicongweni setintsaba, naye lucobo ahamba ashakutela, futsiloko yi…25 Ufanele wati kutsi ungasindza kanjani, uma ubambekalengaphandle. Kukhona lokunye, wati kutsi ungasindza kanjani!Ngikhwelile etihlahleni ngibuye ngidzilike kuto, ngibuyengikhwele etihlahleni ngibuye ngidzilike, phansi phezulukanjalo, kute ngitigcine ngiphila. Ngake ngalitsatsa lichwalapho selingemafithi lamane ngalapha nangalapha, ngihlakatesigodvo ngisiwise phansi. Futsi ngilambe kakhulu ngitengingabe ngisakhona nekukumela! Bese ngihlakata letigodvoletindzala, ngitokhele ngente kushise bese ngincibilikisa lichwalehle. Bese kutsi-ke cishe ngensimbi yekucala enhloko ekuseni,ngensimbi yesibili enhloko, ngitidvonse tingodvo, bese ngilalaphansi kuloyomhlabatsi lofutfumele, kute ngitigcine ngiphila.Futsi ufanele wati kutsi tentiwa kanjani letintfo leti.26 Futsi lendvodza yayingati kutsi yayentani, yayingenamuntfulongayicondzisa. Futsi yabamba indvodzana yayo lucobolencane yayibeka esifubeni sayo yate yayiva seyibandza yafa.

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Kungacabangeli! Kube nje bekatsetse umholi wahamba naye,bekatawumbuyisa ngco entansi entsabeni kungenandzabakutsi kwakusikhatsi sini, niyabona. Kodvwa yalindza kwatekwabamnyama, yasuke yangabe isayibona indlela yayo ndzawotonkhe.27 Nguleyo inkhatsato kumaKristu namuhla. Alindza kutebumnyama bumbonye, bese nitfola-ke kutsi nisuke ngaphandlekweMholi. UMholi!28 Ngani, Nike nambona umuntfu lolahlekile? Ngabe ukhonaloke wehlakalelwa kuletsa umuntfu lolahlekile? Kuyintfo lembikakhulu kuloke wayibona. Uma umuntfu alahleka, uyahlanya.Akati kutsi wentani. Sabamba indvodza le laphaya, umfana,futsi bekakadze alahlekile emahlatsini, futsi bekacatjangwa…Bekangumgcini pulazi letinkomo, kodvwa bekasesifundzenilekungesiso wase uyalahleka, waphendvuka. Futsi laphosebamtfola emalangeni lamatsatfu kamuva, bekagijimanjengemuntfu lohlanyako, ahholola kakhulu. Tindzebe takhetonkhe temlomo tatidlekile, futsi walahla sibhamu sakhe futsibekangati kutsi utakwentanjani. Futsi ngesikhatsi umnakabolucobo, ngesikhatsi…Bambamba bambopha. Lapho umnakabolucobo efika kuye, walwa naye njengesilwane, watamakumluma, bekangati kutsi bekakuphi. Ngani na? Bekalahlekile.Futsi uma umuntfu alahlekile, usesimeni sekudideka. Futsi akatikutsi ukulesosimo, ngoba lokukulahleka kwakhe kumletselalokuveva, futsi akati kutsi ukuphi nekutsi wentani.29 Kunjalo uma umuntfu alahlekile kuNkulunkulu! Wentatintfo langeke atente ngalokwejwayelekile. Wenta tintfo le—letingale kwemicabango lengentiwa ngumuntfu. Umuntfulolahleke kuNkulunkulu, libandla lelilahlekile kuNkulunkulu,libandla lelisukile kuNkulunkulu, lasuka etimisweniteliBhayibheli laNkulunkulu, liyokwenta tintfo mhlawumbelongakagadzi kutitfola ebandleni laNkulunkulu lophilako.Bayotfola imali yabo ngemidlalo yekulutsa, badlale i-lottery,bagembule, noma yini intfo lebangayenta. Bayofundzisa nomayini, bavumele noma yini itentele nje, babhambadze indvodzaemhlane lababanikeli labakhulu ebandleni, nalokunjalokanjalo, kutsi babavumele bachubeke nako. Kunjalo. Bafakeemadikhoni ebhodini lashade kane noma kasihlanu, kutenje batichubekele nako, kute kuhlangabetane tiphetfo. Sinyekuphela siphetfo lofanele uhlangabetane naso, leso, sibophosakho kuNkulunkulu. Usukume ukhulume liCiniso! Lolahlekile,umuntfu lolahlekile usesimeni sekudideka, ungumuntfulohlanyako.30 Umholi unekucondza, kutsi kuhanjwa kanjani nekutsikwentiweni. Nkulunkulu e…Nkulunkulu bekahlala njaloabatfumelela umholi bantfu baKhe. Nkulunkulu akateehluleke. Utfumela umholi, kodvwa ufanele umamukeleloyomholi. Niyabona? Ufanele ukukholwe. Ufanele uhambe

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ngendlela layishoko. Uma ufika ehlane, nemholi wakho atsi“sihamba ngalendlela,” futsi kantsi wena ucabanga kutsiuhamba ngaleyandlela, utawuhamba ulahleke. Bese umau…Nkulunkulu usitfumelela umholi kutsi asihole, sifanelesimlandzele loyomholi. Akunandzaba kutsi sicabangani,kutsi yini lebukeka inengcondvo nekutsi yini lebukekaibuphukuphuku, asikho phansi kwekwahlukanisa loko, umholinguye kuphela.31 Nkulunkulu, eTestamenteni leliDzala, watfumelabaprofethi. Bebabaholi, ngoba Livi leNkhosi leta kumprofethi.Bebabaholi. Bafundzisa bantfu njengoba besinako itoloebusuku, ngaIsaya naUziya. Bafundziswa, futsi bafundzisabantfu babahola. Futsi manje Nkulunkulu bekahlala njaloatfumela baholi baKhe, Akate ahlale angabi naye umholi,iminyaka yonkhe. Nkulunkulu bekahlala njalo anemuntfulotsite lobekaMmela kulomhlaba, eminyakeni yonkhe.32 Manje, ngaletinye tikhatsi bayaphuma kumholi, “baphumeemsebeni,” njengoba sikubita kanjalo. Ngesikhatsi Jesuaselapha emhlabeni, anikhumbuli kutsi Jesu watsi kubaFarisi,“Ninebaholi labatimphumphutse”? Baholi labatimphumphutse,baphumphutsekile etintfweni tekamoya. Niyabona? Manje,bebafanele kutsi babebaholi, baholi kubantfu, baholele bantfuensindzisweni. Kodvwa Jesu watsi, “Niphumphutsekile!”futsi Watsi, “Bayekeleni, ngoba uma imphumphutse iholaimphumphutse, totimbili angeke tiwele emgodzini na?”Baholi labatimphumphutse! O, live beliboliswe nguloko,kuhola lokubumphumphutse. Akafuni uncike ekucondzenikwakho. Nkulunkulu akafuni uncike ekucondzeni kwakhonoma imicabango yakho, noma yimiphi imicabango leyentiwengumuntfu.33 Nkulunkulu utfumela uMholi, futsi Nkulunkulu ufunanikhumbule kutsi loyo nguMholi waKhe lobekiwe. Futsi sifanelesiMkhumbule. Lapha Kutsi, Jesu watsi, “Angiyikunishiya,kodvwa Ngiyawunicelela kuBabe futsi Uyonitfumelelalomunye uMdvudvuti.” Futsi loMdvudvuti, bekatawutsiuma Afika, bekatosiholela kulolonkhe liCiniso. Futsi LivilaNkulunkulu liliCiniso, futsi Livi linguKristu, “NgiyiNdlela,neliCiniso, nekuPhila.” ULivi, “Ekucaleni bekakhona Livi,Livi bekanaNkulunkulu, uLivi bekanguNkulunkulu. Liviwaba-yinyama wakha phakatsi kwetfu.” Bese uma silandzelauMholi weliciniso impela, uMoya loyiNgcwele, BekatositjelaLakubonile, Lakuvile, futsi Bekatosikhombisa tintfo letitako.Ameni. Nako lapho ukhona. Utonikhombisa tintfo letitako.34 Futsi uma emabandla namuhla akwala loko, singakulindzelakanjani kutsi siye eZulwini? Uma uMoya loyiNgcwelewatfunyelwa kitsi kutsi abe nguMholi, sitotsatsa lesinye sikhuluselisontfo, umbhishobhi lotsite, umbonisi lotsite lomkhulu,

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noma umuntfu lonjalo kutsi asihole, abe uMoya loyiNgcweleaniketwa tsine kutsi asihole.35 Futsi uMoya loyiNgcwele njalo ukhuluma ngeLivi.“Nginalokunengi kutsi nginitjele, ningeke nikucondze manje,kepha uma Efika, Uyawuniholela kuLo.” Ngulesosizatfusekufika kwetiMphawu. Ekucedzelweni kweluPhawulwesiKhombisa, imfihlakalo yaNkulunkulu itawube seyifeziwe,kwati kutsi Nkulunkulu Ungubani, kutsi Uyini, kutsi Uphilakanjani, imvelo yaKhe, Bukhona baKhe. Ufanele ngabesewuhambe wenyukela lapha ngalesosikhatsi, niyabona,kusiletsa emumeni logcwele wemadvodzana nemadvodzakatiaNkulunkulu, liBandla lelihlantwe eNgatini yaKristu,lelitsengwe ngaphandle kwemali, likhokhelwe yiNgati yaJesuKristu.36 Manje, naku lapha sikhonakhona, uMholi, futsi UnguMholilokhetfwe nguNkulunkulu. Manje, sihamba sidzabule ehlanefutsi sisemgwacweni wetfu ndzawanatsite, futsi singeke sikhonekuchubeka ngaphandle kwaloMholi. Futsi kungabikho nomangubani lolokotsa kufaka noma ngumuphi lomunye umholiesikhundleni salo! Uma ukwenta, utakukhipha elayinini.LoMholi uyayati indlela! Wati onkhe ema-intji endlela. Watiwonkhe umcabango losenhlitiyweni yakho. Wati wonkheumuntfu lolapha. Uyati kutsi ungubani nekutsi wenteni,nako konkhe ngawe. UnguMholi waNkulunkulu, uMoyaloyiNgcwele, futsi uyonembulela tintfo, futsi uyosho tintfoLativile, angaphindza emagama akho awabuyise njengobaanjalo futsi asho lokushito. Ameni. Akutjele kutsi bewuyini,kutsi unani, kutsi uyaphi. UMholi, uMholi locinisile, futsiUyakuniholela kulolonkhe liCiniso, neLivi laKhe liliCiniso.37 Manje, uMoya loyiNgcwele awuyokwenta, utsi “ameni”eluhlobeni lolutsite lwesivumokholo lesentiwe ngumuntfu.Liyogcizelela kuphela kakhulu Livi laNkulunkulu nga “Ameni,”ngoba Linjalo. UMoya loyiNgcwele ungeke ukuhole nomangayiphi lenye indlela. Manje intfo lesimanga kutsi, kutsi tsinesonkhe, onkhe emahlelo etfu lamakhulu netintfo, sitsi ngalinyelaholwa nguMoya loyiNgcwele, futsi kunemehluko lomkhululofana nemini nebusuku kuko konkhe kwetfu.38 Kepha ngesikhatsi Pawula, loyomFarisi lomncanelowemukela uMoya loyiNgcwele ngesikhatsi Ananiyaambhabhatisa, futsi wahambawaya eArabiya futsi wafundzisisaiminyaka lemitsatfu, wabuya, futsi akatange abute ebandleninganoma yini iminyaka lelishumi nakune, futsi laphoefika abonana naPetru, inhloko yelibandla eJerusalema,bebavumelana emFundzisweni. Ngani? UMoya loyiNgcwelelofanako! Lapho khona Petru abhabhatisa eGameni laJesuKristu, Pawula wenta lokufanako ngaphandle kwekutjelwanoma ngubani. Lapho khona Petru afundzisa umbhabhatisowaMoya loNgcwele, nekungcweliswa, nalokunjalo; Pawula

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wenta intfo lefanako, ngaphandle kwekubuta ebandleni,ngoba BekunguMholi lofanako. Pho singaba kanjani tsinenamuhla uma bantfu baphika lamaCiniso na? NgesikhatsiPetru afundzisa lakwentako ngendlela libandla lelalitobekwangayo ngeluhlelo, Pawula bekanemFundziso lefanako, ngobabebaneMholi lofanako.39 UMholi angeke atsatse loyedvwa amshonise le ngalendlela,nalomunye amshonise ngaleyondlela, futsi atfumele loyedvwaemphumalanga nalomunye enshonalanga. Niyabona,Utanigcina nindzawonye. Futsi uma nje sitovele sivumele uMoyaloyiNgcwele usigcine ndzawonye, sitawuba munye. U—uma njesingamvumeli develi akudvonsele emgwacweni lokungasiwo,sitawuba nenhlitiyo leyodvwa, umcondvo munye, nhlitiyonye,ngeMoya munye, uMoya loyiNgcwele, uMholi waNkulunkululotasiholela kulolonkhe liCiniso. Kunjalo. Kodvwa umeleulandzele uMholi wakho. Yebo, mnumzane.40 Buka Nikhodima, bekadzinga uMholi, nalokubekangumuntfu lohlakaniphile. Bekangumfundzisi,cishe anemashumi lasiphohlongo eminyaka budzala.BekanguwebaFarisi, noma—noma tiNkantolo teSanhedrin,uMkhandlo, iNhlangano yebaFundisi. Bekangulomunyewebantfu babo labakhulu kunabo bonkhe, thishela kaIsrayeli,amkhulu kuwo. Cabanga, thishela lomkhulu! Yebo, bekayatiimitsetfo, kodvwa uma sekutiwa ekutalweni kabusha,bekadzinga uMholi. Bekakulambele. Bekati kutsi bekufanelekubekhona lokwehlukile. Kutiveta kwakhe kuKristungalobobusuku bekufakazela. Kwafakaza futsi loku, umuvowabo bonkhe, kodvwa kute ngisho munye wabo lobekanasoimpela—impela sibindzi lebekanaso. Kwakungekho namunyewabo lobekangenyukela lapho futsi ente lakwentako. Ninenonkhe, bantfu, niyamsola Nikhodima ngekuta ebusuku.Weta lapho. Wefika. Ngiyati labanye bantfu ngeke batebacale ngisho, emini noma ebusuku. Kodvwa wefika lapho,futsi bekadzinga uMholi, futsi watsi, “Mfundzisi, si,”lesichumuka eNkantolo yeSanhedrin, “siyati kutsi WenaunguMfundzisi lovela kuNkulunkulu.” Wakwatelani na?Bekangulocinisekisile. Niyabona, bekafuna kwati kutsilokutalwa kabusha kwakuchaza kutsini, futsi waya ngco kuloYolonguye impela, ngoba Nkulunkulu bekacinisekisile kutsi LonabekunguMholi waKhe, Jesu. Bukani kutsi watsini, “Mfundzisi,siyati kutsi Wena unguMfundzisi lovela kuNkulunkulu,ngoba akekho longenta letintfo Lotentako, uma Nkulunkuluangekhonaye.”41 Bekukucinisekisa lapho, kutsi bekukhona Nkulunkululophilako ngekhatsi kuYe. Lakufakaza kutsi, “AkusiMi lengentalemisebenti; nguBabe waMi lohlala kiMi. Ngicinisile Ngitsikini, iNdvodzana ingeke yenta-lutfo ngekwaYo; kuphela lokoLebona uYise akwenta, neNdvodzana iyakwenta kanjalo.

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Babe uyasebenta, nami Ngiyasebenta kute kube-manje.”Ngalamanye emagama, Nkulunkulu waMkhombisa kutsiakenteni, futsi Wahamba futsi wavele wakwenta. Akatangeente lutfo Ate atjelwe nguNkulunkulu kutsi akwente. Ameni.Loko ngemaciniso mbamba lasobala ako. Uma nje singachubekafutsi silindze uMoya loyiNgcwele ute usichubele kutsi sikwente!Nguloko. Bese-ke silahlekela ngalokuphelele kuKristukangangekutsi Angabe aloku akusundvuta yenkhe indzawonjengoba Enta kimi, kodvwa kuncukuta lokuncane kwekucalakwenhloko yaKhe, sewulungele futsi akukhontfo lekutakumisa,ngoba uyati kutsi kuyintsandvo yaNkulunkulu.42 Bekadzinga uMholi. Futsi BekanguMholi locinisekisiwe.Bekaholwa nguloMholi ngoba bekati kutsi loMholibekaphefumulelwe nguNkulunkulu. Bekati kutsi emasikobekawakhontile, mhlawumbe ngebaFarisi, baSadusi, nomangukuphi lokunye, bekatikhontile letotivumokholo sikhatsilesidze futsi wabona kungenteki lutfo. Kodvwa nakukufika umuntfu enkhundleni, atsi UnguMesiya lotsenjisiweweliBhayibheli. Bese Aphendvuka enta yona impela imisebentiyaNkulunkulu. Jesu watsi, “Uma Ngingenti imisebenti yaBabewaMi, khona ningaNgikholwa. Kodvwa uma ningangikholwaMine, kholwani ngulemisebenti leNgiyentako, ngoba ifakazangaMi.”43 Ngako-ke, akumangalisi Nikhodima atsi, “Mfundisi, siyatiWena unguMfundzisi lovela kuNkulunkulu, ngoba kute longentaletintfo Lotentako Nkulunkulu angekho naYe.” Niyabona,bekadzinga uMholi, naloku bekangulomkhulu walentfo.Bekangulomkhulu welibandla lakhe. Bekanesitfunti, futsibekane—bekanetindzawo letidvumile, futsi bekangumuntfulomkhulu; akungabateki, ahlonishwa bantfu bonkhe evenilonkhe. Kodvwa uma sekufika ekutalweni kabusha, bekadzingauMholi! Kanjalo natsi, yebo, sasidzinga uMholi.44 Korneliyu, bekangumuntfu lomkhulu, umuntfulohloniphekile. Wakha emasontfo. Wahlonipha emaJuda ngobawati kutsi inkholo yawo beyicinisile. Futsi wakhokha tipholetinikwa labaphuyile, futsi wakhuleka onkhe malanga, kodvwauma uMoya loNgcwele efika (Kukhona lebesekwengetiweebandleni), bekadzinga uMholi. Nkulunkulu waMtfumelelauMoya loNgcwele. WaWutfumela ukumuntfu Petru, “Kodvwakwatsi Petru asakhuluma lawamaVi, uMoya loNgcwelewehlela etikwakhe.” [Akucoshwanga etheyiphini—Umhl.]Nkulunkulu wasebentisa uMholi ngaPetru. WaWusebentisa,ngoba Waholela Korneliyu endleleni lekunguyonayona. Futsikwatsi asakhuluma, uMoya loNgcwele wehlela kulabo beTive.Wase utsi-ke, “Ukhona umuntfu longala nemanti, kutsibangabhabhatiswa laba na?” Niyabona, kusakhuluma uMholi,akusuye Petru. Ngoba leso bekusicuku seMjuda…noma beTive,“bangcolile, bangakahlanteki” kuye, futsi bekangafuni ngisho

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nekuya. Kodvwa uMholi watsi, “Ngiyakutfuma.” Wenta tintfolongacabangi kutsi bewuyoke utente, uma uMholi alawulangalokuphelele, uma uMvumela akuhole. O, kusimangalisokuholwa nguMoya loyiNgcwele. UnguMholi. Kulungile.Wakhuluma ngaPetru futsi wamtjela kutsi kufanele enteni.Kwatsi-ke ngesikhatsi bonkhe bemukela uMoya loyiNgcwele,watsi, “Singeke sale nemanti, njengoba kubonakala kutsi labasebemukele uMoya loNgcwele njengoba senta ekucaleni.” Basebayababhabhatisa eGameni leNkhosi Jesu. Manje, ngubanilowamhola kutsi ente loko na? UMholi lebekakuye. Akatangeyini Jesu abatjele, “Ningakhatsateki kutsi nitawutsini,ngoba akusini lenikhulumako; nguBabe lohlala kini, nguYelokhulumako na?” Ameni.45 Umthenwa, ehla achamuka eJerusalema. Futsi NkulunkulubekaneMholi eveni ngalesosikhatsi, uMoya loNgcwele, futsiBekanemuntfu entansi lapho lebekagcwaliswe ngaloMholi.Bekangesuye ngisho umshumayeli, bekatsi akabe lidikhoni.Futsi bekasentansi lapho aphulukisa labagulako futsiakhipha emademoni, futsi abanga lokukhulu kushukuma,kutfokota lokukhulu bekusedolobheni. Bekanemakhulu ebantfubabutsene bamtungeletile, futsi uMholi watsi, “Sekwenele loko,asibuyele emuva ngalendlela.” Akatange aphikisane neMholiwakhe.46 Ungalokotsi uphikisane neLivi leMholi wakho. Mlandzele.Uma ungamlandzeli, ukhuphuka ulahleke. Futsi, khumbula,uma uMshiya, sewusele wedvwa, ngako sifuna kuhlalasisondzele kuMholi.47 Ngako emgwacweni, Watsi, “Shiya lesicuku lesi manje,Philip, futsi phuma uye ehlane lapho kungenamuntfu khona.Kodvwa Ngikutfumela ngephandle lapho, futsi kutawubakhonaumuntfu-mumbe uma Ngikufikisa phandle lapho.” Nakukuta umthenwa lonesitunge, bekayindvodza lesikhulu kuyoindvovukati entansi eTopiya. Ngako bekehla, afundza iNcwadziyaIsaya. Futsi uMholi watsi, “Sondzela encoleni.”

Wase utsi, “Uyakucondza loku lokufundzako na?”48 Watsi, “Ngingakucondza kanjani uma kute longiholako na?”O, he! Kodvwa Philip bekaneMholi. Ameni. Futsi wacala kuwolowomBhalo, washumayela kuye Kristu. Ameni. UMholi! Hhayikumtjela ngesivumokholo lesitsite, wamtjela ngeMholi, Kristu!Futsi wambhabhatisa ngephandle lapho emantini. Impela,kwakunjalo. O, ngikutsandza kabi loko!49 Ngesikhatsi Israyeli ashiya iGibhithe aya eveni lesetsembiso,ku Eksodusi 13:21, Nkulunkulu bekati kutsi bebangakatebahambe ngaleyondlela phambilini. Kwakungemamayelalangemashumi lamane kuphela, kepha nomakunjalo bebadzingaintfo letohamba nabo. Bebatolahleka endleleni yabo. NgakoYena, Nkulunkulu, wabatfumelela uMholi. Eksodusi 13:21, intfo

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lenjengale, “Ngitfuma iNgelosi yaMi phambi kwakho, iNsikayeMlilo, kutsi ikulondvolote endleleni,” kutsi ibaholele kulelivelesetsembiso. Nebantfwana bakaIsrayeli balandzela loyoMholi,iNsika yeMlilo (ebusuku), liFu emini. Uma Ima, bebema. UmaIhamba, bebahamba. Futsi lapho Sekabasondzete edvute nelive,futsi bebangakakulungeli kuwela, Wabaholela emuva ehlanefutsi. Akahambanga nabo.50 Linguloko-ke, libandla namuhla. Akungabateki kephakubeketela kwaNkulunkulu namuhla, njengoba kwakunjaloemihleni yaNoah, libandla ngabe selahamba kube njebelicondzile futsi lahlala ngeluhlelo. Kodvwa Utasiholaasitungeletise asitungeletise asitungeletise.51 Israyeli bekangati, ngesikhatsi bamemeta, ngekubonaemasotja lafile aseGibhithe, emahhashi lamitile, tincolataFaro tagenuka tabheka phansi, batfola kuncoba, MoseaseMoyeni, ahlabelela aseMoyeni, Miriyamu asina aseMoyeni,nemadvodzakati akaIsrayeli agijima ehla enyuka elugwini,bamemeta basina, bebasalelwe tinsuku letimbalwa kuphelakutsi bafike elubisini nasetinyosini. Bebangati kutsikwakusasele iminyaka lengemashumi lamane, ngoba bacalakukhononela Nkulunkulu neMholi.52 Futsi sititfola lucobo lwetfu ngendlela lefanako. NgiyaeShreveport emvakwalapha. KuneluSuku lwekuBonga kwehlakwaMoya loNgcwele, emashumi lasihlanu eminyaka lendlulile,e—eLouisiana, eluSukwini lwekuBonga. Seliwe kakhulukanganani libandla kusukela kulesosikhatsi! Niyacondza yinikutsi libandla leRoman Khatolika ekucaleni kwalo laliliBandlaleperite costali na? Lelo liciniso. Kunjalo. Belilibandla leperitecostali, kodvwa tikhulu letisitashi tacala kungena tigucula i—imiBhalo yaNkulunkulu tiyiyisa emasikweni ato, tengeta kuWotimfundziso letingaphikiswa, nalokunjalo. Futsi buka kutsibanani manje, akukho ngisho nelicashata lemBhalo kunomanguyiphi. Bafaka lokunye esikhundleni salokunye, lucetulwesinkhwa esikhundleni saMoya loNgcwele. Bafaka kufafataesikhundleni sekucwilisa. Bafaka “uYise, iNdvodzana, neMoyaloNgcwele” esikhundleni se “iNkhosi Jesu Kristu.” Baguculelaonkhe lamavi lamakhulu aNkulunkulu lesasibekelwe wona,futsi bakhashane, khashane kakhulu, khashane nemFundzisoyangekwemBhalo.53 Futsi iPentekoste yehlela eLouisiana, emashumini lasihlanueminyaka lendlulile, futsi uma lima leminye iminyakalengemakhulu lamabili, litawukhwesha kakhulu kunalokulibandla leKhatolika lelingiko, uma lichubeka liwa ngalendlelaleliwe ngayo kuleminyaka lengemashumi lasihlanu lendlulile,ngoba bayengeta nje kulo ngaso sonkhe sikhatsi, njalo.Bashumayeli lebayifashini lendzala sebahambile. Tinkonzotasesitaladini, awuseva nangaleyodvwa. Konkhe lesinakosicuku seHollywood lesengetwe kulo, besifazane labahhule

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tinwele bagcoke tikhindi, bapendile, nako konkhe lokunye,batibita ngemaKristu. Ricky lotsite lomncane nelugitali,agijima ehla enyuka endzaweni, nebesifazane bagcoke ingubolempintja njenge…njengesoseji lisesikhumbeni nesi—sikhumbasingaphandle, cishe, banyakanyakata etulu emsamo, bagijimabehla benyuka emsamo, badansa nemacici etindlebeni alenga,nalokunye kwaloku kuhhula tinwele lokusha kwentfombi yelive,bese kutibita ngebuKristu.54 Lesikudzingako yifashini lendzala, letfunyelwenguNkulunkulu, inkholo leyobulanako letoyobula lokolokukwelive kuphume ebandleni. Sidzinga kubuyela kuMoyaloyiNgcwele nemlilo, sibuyele entfweni leshisa ikhipheimfucuta, ibuyise kushumayela lokuyifashini lendzala, yenteliZulu liphakame, nesihogo sishise, umbhobho wesibhamuucondze. Sidzinga lolohlobo lwekushumayela. Kodvwa awukeukwente namuhla, libandla lakho liyokuvotela kutsi ucoshwe.55 Ngaletinye tikhatsi bashumayeli labalungile badukiswalibandla labo. Ngulesosizatfu ngingenalo lihlelo.Nginehlokohhovisi leyodvwa, leyo ivela eZulwini. LaphoAtfumela khona, ngiyoya. Noma yini Layishoko, ngiyayisho.Asifuni-hlelo. Lelibandla leli lake nje lakhuluma ngelihlelo,senimlahlile umelusi wenu kusukela khona lapho. Ngingekengihlale kulo, ngeke ngisho imizuzu lesihlanu. Lonkhe libandlalelake lahlela labalite, futsi ngitjele lelilodvwa lelingatange,futsi ngitjele lelilodvwa lelaphindze lavuka futsi. UMoyaloyiNgcwele utfunyelwe kuhola libandla, hhayi licembu lelitsitelemuntfu. UMoya loyiNgcwele ukuhlakanipha konkhe. Umuntfuuba sitashi, angabinandzaba.56 Nkulunkulu wabatjela kutsi Bekatobatfumelela uMholi,Bekatobahola endleleni. Futsi uma nje uma bebasalandzelaleyoNsika yeMlilo, bebakahle bonkhe. Wabaholela enhlaesangweni lelive lesetsembiso, futsi-ke bekatohamba libangalelingako. Kwase kutsi Joshuwa, lelochawe lelikhulu,niyalikhumbula lilanga labatjela ngalo, “Tingcwelise,elangeni lesitsatfu Nkulunkulu utawuvula iJordani entansilapha futsi sitawewela na”? Manje caphela kutsi watsini(ngiyakutsandza loku) emiBhalweni, watsi, “Hlalani nisondzeleemva kweMphongolo, ngoba anikate nendlule ngalendlelaphambilini.”57 Wawuyini uMphongolo? LiVi. Ungahambi ngetindlela takhotebuhlelo manje, hlala emva kweLivi ngco, ngoba awukatewendlule ngalendlela phambilini. Futsi, mnaketfu, uma kwakekwabakhona sikhatsi sekutsi libandla lebuKristu lifanelelitihlole, kumanje nje. Silapho manje nje lapho lomhlanganolomkhulu uchubeka khona eRoma manje nje, kwentiwaimehluko, inhlanganyelo yemaBandla, lapho onkhe lamahlelolahlanganyele khona ndzawonye kutsi akhe umfanekisowesilo, khona impela loko liBhayibheli lelikushito. Futsi

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niyati kutsi sitsiteni ekuseni nje eMilayetweni. Futsi nakulasikhona, konkhe ngco emnyango ngco, nebantfu basalandzelasivumokholo. Kuncono uhlale emva kweLivi! Livi liyokuholalikuwelise, ngoba Livi linguKristu, naKristu unguNkulunkulu,naNkulunkulu unguMoya loyiNgcwele.58 Hlala emva kweLivi! O, yebo, mnumzane! HlalanaloyoMholi. Hlala emva kwaLo ngco. Ungabi sembikwaLo,hlala emva kwaLo. Livumele Likuhole, ungaLiholi. LidedeleLihambe.59 Joshuwa watsi, “Manje, anikate nendlule ngalendlelaphambilini, anati lutfo ngemgwaco.”60 Nguleyo inkhatsato namuhla. Anidzingi-mholi kutsi aniholeentasi ngemgwaco lobanti. O, nitati tonkhe tindlela letimihumenako konkhe lokunye. Niyati yonkhe indlela leya esonweni.Akukho…O, benisolo nilapha sikhatsi lesidze. Asikho sidzingosekutsi lotsite atame kukutjela ngaloko, nitati tonkhe tindlelaletijubelako. Kunjalo, sonkhe sono, nati konkhe ngaso. Akekholotakutjela kutsi kwebiwa kanjani; uyakwati loko. Akekholotakutjela kutsi kwetfukwa kanjani; uyakwati loko. Akekholotokutjela kutsi tentiwa kanjani letintfo leti letimbi, ngobakubhalwe kutotonkhe tihlahla ndzawo tonkhe.61 Kodvwa, khumbulani, nine bantfu leningemaKristu,seniwelele ngesheya. Seningene kulelinye Live. Senitelwekabusha. NiseVeni, Live laseZulwini. NiseVeni lesetsembiso.62 Ningabuka, niyayati indlela yenu konkhe lapha. O, he, yebo.Niyati kutsini—kutsini, abanjwa kanjani emakhadi lowaphetseemdlalweni wawo. Uyati kutsi nguliphi lidayisi, uma ligicika,kutsi lisho kutsini, nako konkhe kanjalo. Kodvwa uma sekufikaekwatini bungcwele nekulunga nemandla aNkulunkulu, nekutsiuMoya loyiNgcwele usebenta kanjani nekutsi Wentani, kunconouhlale emva kweLivi ngco, uMholi. Niyabona? Awukatewendlule ngalendlela phambilini.63 Yebo, wena utsi, “Ngangiyindvodza lehlakaniphe impela,bengine—bengineticu letimbili ekolishi.” Ncono ukukhohlweloko. Yebo, mnumzane.64 “Ngendlule kusermina.” Kuncono uyikhohlwe. Yebo.Kuncono uhlale emva kweMholi. UMvumele Akuhole.Uyayati indlela; wena awuyati. Awukate wendlule ngalendlelaphambilini. “Kuhle,” wena utsi, “bakile.”65 Bona kutsi bakile yini. Jesu watsi, “Labo labendlulengalendlela, letibonakaliso leti tiyobalandzela. LiGamalaMi, batawukhipha emademoni, bakhulume ngetilwimiletinsha; noma baphatse tinyoka noma banatse lokubulalako,ngeke kulimate. Uma babeka tandla tabo kulabagulako,batawusindza.” Labanengi babo bayaLincaba, baLiphike, bashonekutsi Alikaphefumulela. Abamlandzeli uMholi. Balandzela

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sivumokholo lesentiwe ngumuntfu. Kuncono uhlale ngco emvakweLivi, ngoba awukate wendlule ngalendlela, niyati.66 Kodvwa utelwe kabusha, futsi utalelwe ebungcweleni.Awukate wendlule ngalendlela phambilini. U pa-…Uma wendlula ngalendlela, ufanele ufike ngekwendlulaebungcweleni, ngoba Live lelisha, kuPhila lokusha, bantfulabasha.67 Uyofika ebandleni futsi uve umuntfu asukuma, amemete,“Ludvumo kuNkulunkulu! Haleluya!”68 Ngani, wena utawutsi, “Wo, yehheni bo, abatange bakwenteloko ebandleni lami! Ngitawusukuma ngiphumele ngephandle!”Niyabona? Caphela.69 Hlala emva kweLivi, manje, vumela uMholi akuhole.“Utaniholela kulolonkhe liCiniso, futsi embule letintfo letileNgikhulume ngato kini. Utanikhombisa loko. Utanibikelatintfo letitako,” uMholi weliciniso. Ungayi kumbhishobhi;hamba kuMholi. Ungayi kunoma ngubani kodvwa kuMholi.NguYe lowatfunyelwa kutonihola. NguYe lotakwenta.Nkulunkulu ukulungiselele uMholi. Tsatsa indlela lelungiselwenguNkulunkulu.70 Inkhatsato yako kutsi namuhla, kutsi bantfu labetaenkonzweni bahlala nje imizuzu lembalwa, bese kwenteka intfolabangakayejwayeli.71 Ngamncoma wesifazane lomncane welibandla lelibandzakoleligcina umtsetfo ngemehlo-nje, ngisandza kumkhulekela nje.Nkulunkulu utamphulukisa lowesifazane lomncane. Akatangeakucondze loku. Bekangati lutfo ngako. Wangena, watsibekangati. Kodvwa ngamtjela, “Wota utongibona.” Bekatsikukhophotela futsi atifihla, kodvwa uMholi bekaloku amtjela,“Chubeka.” Wakutfola. Nguloko. Niyabona, kungenca yaMoyaloyiNgcwele losiholela kuletintfo leti. Niyabona, Nkulunkuluunendlela layilungisile.72 Sena-ke…Benike nawacaphelisisa emahansi esiganga umaewela, emadada aya eningizimu na? Kuhle, manje khumbulani,lelodada lelidzadlana latalelwa etulu ngale esitibeni ndzawondzawo. Aliyati imphumalanga, inyakatfo, inshonalanga,neningizimu. Alati lutfo kodvwa lati lesositiba lelisetululapho etintsabeni eCanada. Lalingakate lisuke kulelosositiba,kodvwa lalingumholi wekutalwa. Lelolicudze lelidada lelincanelatalelwa kuba ngumholi. Futsi intfo yekucala, ngalobunyebusuku kwabakhona lichwa lelikhulu lita lendlula esicokwenisetintsaba. Kwentekani? Loyomoyana lobandzako wehla ujubalapho. Kwangatsi ngiyalibona lichachatela, litsi, “Maka, lokukusho kutsini?” Niyabona, lalingatange lisive lesosimo selitululesibandzako ngaphambilini. Licala libhekisisa ndzawo tonkhe,licala libhekisisa ndzawo tonkhe elusentseni lwesitiba, kucalakulala sitfwatfwa, lichwa lita etikwesitiba. Alati, kodvwa khona

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masinyane nje…Latalelwa kuba ngumholi kuloyomhlambiwemadada. Liyogcuma khona lapho liphume ekhatsi nendzawoyalesositiba uma litseleka kulo. Ungakubita ngaloko lofunakukubita ngako. Sikubita ngekutsi kuphefumulelwa, nomaungakubita, o, ngekutsi kutibonela ngekwemvelo nje, nomangabe kuyini. Litawuvele lisuke liphume ekhatsi nalesositiba,libhekise etulu loyomlonyana emoyeni, bese litsi, “Honk-honk, honk-honk!” futsi onkhe emadada asesitibeni ayophumaacondze kulo. Ngani na? Ayamati umholi wawo, ngendlela njelakhala ngayo.73 “Uma licilongo likhala ngelivi lelingacondzakali,ngubani longatilungiselela kulwa na?” Kunjalo. Ngubanilongatilungiselela kulwa uma licilongo likhala ngelivilelingacondzakali na?74 Yebo, uma lelodada lelincane likhala ngalokungacondzakali,ngubani lotatilungiselela kundiza na? Lelodada lelidzadlanaliyobhekisa umlonyana walo etulu ngephandle lapho,futsi limpongolote, “Honk-honk, honk-honk!” futsi onkheemadada lamancane atakuta kulo. “Honk-honk, honk-honk!”Nankha. Ayoba nejubhili lemnandzi, khona lapho ekhatsinalesositiba, abeloku aphendvuphendvuka aphendvuka. Emvakwesikhashana litiva kunyakata kulo, lifanele lisuke. Litawutsikulungisa kancane emaphiko alo lamancane lisuke lindizelisuke kulesositiba, likhuphukele emoyeni lijikajike kane nomakasihlanu, lihambe licondze ngco eLouisiana ngekuhambakwalo, onkhe emadada asemvakwalo. “Honk-honk, honk-honk,” nalo lifika. Ngani na? Lingumholi! Ameni! Emadadaayamati umholi wawo, libandla alimati. Yebo, liyati kutsilifanele lenteni.75 Ake nibuke lawomahansi lamadzala, acondza avela eAlaska.Manje, kukhona licudze lelihansi lelidzala lelihlala liwahola,nalawomahansi afanele alibukisise kahle impela lelocudzelelihansi. Afanele ati kutsi lelocudze lelihansi likhulumangani. Nikufundzile loko kumagazini iLook lapha cisheeminyakeni lemine leyendlulile, lapho licudze lelihansi lelidzalangalesinye sikhatsi lalingati kutsi lalentani, futsi lahola sicukusemahansi sawelela le eNgilandi? Kunjalo. Bekangakateakwati kubaseNgilandi ngaphambili. Ngani na? Akatangeamcaphelisise wawo—umholi wawo. Lelocudze lelihansilelidzala belingati kutsi laliyaphi. Futsi manje angesheya laphoakasakwati kubuya.76 Nguleyondzaba-ke kuyoyonkhe incumbi yalamahansinamuhla, asashuca nje. Batsi, leyo leyomagazini iLook latsi,lamahansi ayashuca futsi andize atungelete etikweNgilandi,kodvwa awati kutsi kubuyelwa kanjani emuva. Kunguleyondlelanakulamanye emahansi lengiwatiko. Ninelubhuzane,nemhlangano lomkhulu loyindzendzendze, futsi ninemvuselelilotsite lotako ashumayele sikhashana, kodvwa anati kutsi

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niyaphi. Nibhuza nitungeleta nitungeleta, ngoba ninelicudzelelihansi lelitsite leliniholako linidvonsele ekutitikenikwelihlelo; futsi hhayi kubuyela emuva eVini laNkulunkulu,nibuyele embhabhatisweni waMoya loNgcwele. Bese-kesiyamangala kutsi kungani site imvuselelo etinsukwinitetfu. Niyabona? Ufanele utfole loko kuKhala kwelivilelicondzakalako! Um-hum. Loko kuKhala kwelivi licilongoleliVangeli liphefumula liVangeli, lonkhe Livi laNkulunkulu.Akusiso sivumokholo, akusilo lihlelo; kodvwa liBhayibheli,uMoya loyiNgcwele. “Letibonakaliso leti titawubalandzelalabakholwako.” Niyabona? Futsi nabo bashona entasingemgwaco.77 Licudze lelilodvwa lelihansi lelidzala ngalesinye sikhatsi,batsi, labulalisa sicuku, litama kuwandizisa ebumnyameni,lalingati kutsi laliyaphi, lucobo lwalo, futsi onkhe atingcundzisaetintsabeni ngephandle lapho, futsi lamanye awo abhidlika,apatjaka. Impela! Afanele akwati kukhala kwelivi lawolelicondzakalako. Lelodada lelidzadlana, uma linekukhalakwelivi lelicondzakalako futsi wonkhe umuntfu alati, anejubhililencane yekubhuza futsi nankhaya aya eningizimu. Ehlelakuyokwentani lapho? Lapho kungabandzi khona.78 Manje, uma Nkulunkulu anika lidada umcondvo lowenelekutsi lati kutsi avikwa kanjani emakhata, Ufanele alinikekangakanani pho libandla? Uma lidada lingakwenta lokongoba litibonele ngekwemvelo, kutsiwani-ke ngaMoyaloNgcwele ebandleni? Ufanele usihole sisuka emininingwanenilemidzala netivumokholo netintfo, singene kulomuhle kakhulu,umbhabhatiso lomangalisako waMoya loyiNgcwele. Unikaemandla, kwati, kubeketela, kumesaba Nkulunkulu, neMoyaloyiNgcwele. Nguloko-ke uMholi mbamba latakuhola, ngobaAkanakuphefumula lutfo kepha liVangeli, Livi laNkulunkulunje. Impela, nidzinga uMholi!79 Ngesikhatsi, tati, tatingati lutfo ngaNkulunkulu.Tati—tatitisebenti-temlingo, bemlingo. Betilengesheyaemphumalanga. Niyati, liBhayibheli latsi, “Sibonile iNkhanyetiyaKhe eMphumalanga, site kutokhuleka kuYe.” Tativelaenshonalanga, tabuka emphumalanga tayibona iNkhanyetiyaKhe…noma tabuka enshonalanga, tatiseMphumalanga.BesiseMphumalanga, futsi sayibona iNkhanyeti yaKheenshonalanga. Niyabona? “Sibonile iNkhanyeti yaKheeMphumalanga.” Futsi, niyabona, tatiseMphumalanga.“Ngesikhatsi siseMphumalanga sayibona iNkhanyeti, futsi sitekutokhuleka kuYe.”80 Kwangatsi ngiyabona ngibona labobomngamu balungiselelakuhamba. Kwangatsi ngiyayibona lenye yemakhosikati aboyatsi kuso, yatsi, “Awusho, sewupakishe konkhe, kodvwa iphiinkhombandlela yakho na?”

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Satsi, “A—anginakuyisebentisa inkhombandlelakulesikhatsi.”81 Yatsi, “Utawujuba kanjani latintsabeni na?” Khumbulani,bebafanele bawele uMfula iTigris bese behla badzabuleematsafeni, futsi ba…ngani, bebaneluhambo lweminyakalemibili bagibele emakamela. Batakwenta kanjani loko? Yatsi,“Awu, awutsatsi ngisho nenkhombandlela.”

Satsi, “Cha.”“Utawuhamba kanjani?”

82 “Ngihamba ngendlela lelungiswe nguNkulunkulu.LeyoNkhanyeti ngaleyana itangiholela kuleyoNkhosi.”Nguloko.83 “Sibonile iNkhanyeti yaKhe le eMphumalanga, futsisaYilandzela yonkhe indlela kuta lapha enshonalanga,kutowukhuleka kuYe. Uphi Yena na?” Talandzela indlelalelungiswe nguNkulunkulu. Take tatsi kuboshwa yincumbiyetivumokholo entansi lapho kwesikhashana. TangenaeJerusalema tacala kwehla tenyuka nemgwaco, labantfu labalabagcoke kahle kubendlula bonkhe, batsi, “Uphi Yena na?Uphi Loyo lotelwe loyiNkhosi yebaJuda na?” Kuhle, leyobekuyinhloko, lelo bekuyiJerusalema. Impela libandla lelikhululalifanele kubekhona lelikwatiko ngako. “Uphi Yena na? UphiLoyo lotelwe loyiNkhosi yebaJuda na? Sibonile iNkhanyetiyaKhe eMphumalanga, site kutokhuleka kuYe.Uphi Yena na?”84 Ngani, tawelela kuMfundisi Sibani-bani nakumPristilomkhulu Sibani-bani, akukho namunye wabo lobekati lutfongako. “Ngani, Munye lotelwe loyiNkhosi yemaJuda, uphi Yenana?” Bebangati.85 Kodvwa kwakukhona sicuku sebelusi betimvu ngephandlelapho ngaseceleni kweligcuma banesikhatsi nje, yebo,mnumzane, ngoba bebete ngendlela lelungiswe nguNkulunkulu.86 Ngako bahlala khona lapho, futsi emva kwesikhashanawatsi, “Ngitanitjela kutsi sifanele senteni, sifanelesibenemhlangano welibhodi.” Ngako bangenisa uMkhandloweSanhedrin, futsi—futsi bacabanga kutsi ngabe kukhona yinilabakuvile ngako. “Cha, besingati lutfo ngako.”87 Loko kuyintfo lefanako lekhona namuhla. Abati lutfongaloMholi, loMoya loNgcwele lophulukisako, ugcwalise,usindzise, uyabuya futsi. UMholi lositjele tonkhe letintfoleti letenteka, naku lapho sikhona khona impela phakatsikwabo. LoweHlulela imicabango yenhlitiyo; abati lutfo ngaloko,baKubita ngekufundza umcabango ngengcondvo kumbelokunye. Abati kutsi batawutsini ngako.88 Ngako, niyabona, letotati, kuphela nje…Khumbulani,ngesikhatsi tingena eJerusalema, iNkhanyeti yanyamalala.Futsi yinkhani-nje uma usafuna tivumokholo nendvodza

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yelihlelo kutsi ikuholele kuNkulunkulu, lusito lwaNkulunkululutakushiya. Kodvwa lapho setidzinekile ngiko, futsi tabashiya,tashiya tivumokholo nemahlelo alawomaJuda, futsi taphumaeJerusalema, yase iphindze iyabonanakala futsi iNkhanyetitatfokota ngekutfokota lokukhulu kakhulu. Tambona uMholifutsi! O, kunjani, ungene ebandleni leligcina umtsetfongemehlo-nje lelibandzako lelidzala, bese ubuyela kulelilungilelelinemlilo, ubone uMholi ahola, umehluko lomkhulu kangaka!Yebo, “Siyibonile iNkhanyeti yaKhe eMphumalanga sitekutokhuleka kuYe.”89 Joshuwa watsi kubo, “Manje landzelani uMphongolo, ngobaanikate nibe kulendlela ngaphambilini.” Nkulunkulu angekeavumele loyoMphongolo kutsi uye noma ngukuphi kodvwaucondze. Wonkhe umuntfu waWulandzela, futsi wahamba ngcowawela iJordani.90 Kuyafana nanamuhla, ngeMoya loyiNgcwele. Yebo,mnumzane. Intfo kuphela lesiyatiko, noma ngabe nguMoyaloyiNgcwele noma cha, sibona imanife-…tibonakaliso taWo,tibonakaliso ticinisekisa Livi laNkulunkulu.91 Manje, esikhatsini lesingesidze lesendlulile, sicukusebazalwane besinengati nemafutsa, futsi loko kulungileuma bafuna kukwenta ngaleyondlela. Ngi…Loko akusisosicinisekiso kimi. Sicinisekiso semBhalo, niyabona, yinkhani-nje uma kucinisekisa loko lokushiwo nguNkulunkulu,loko kulungile. Batsi, “Ngulesisizatfu uneMoya loNgcwele,unemafutsa esandleni sakho.” Manje, ngi—ngingekengahambisane naloko. Niyabona? Cha, angikholwa kutsiemafutsa aphatselene naloko. Futsi uma kuyingatiletawuphulukisa nensindziso, kwentekani eNgatini yaJesuKristu na? Uma lawomafutsa aphulukisa, imivimba yaKhe-ke? Niyabona? Niyabona?92 Ngitsandza kute uMholi, lokuletsa eCinisweni leLivi,lapho-ke uyati kutsi utongolotelwe phakatsi futsi ulungelekubala ngekuhlehla. Kunjalo, ulungela kusuka undize. Yebo,mnumzane. Yebo, ngoba ngani na? UMholi nguYe Lokwentakube ngiko impela.93 NginemBhalo lapha, ngiyiniketile lemiBhalo, kodvwangifuna kufundza lona. NguPetruweSibili, sahluko 1, livesi 21.

Ngoba…siprofetho asitange sifike etikhatsinitakadzeni ngentsandvo yemuntfu: kepha ngebantfulabangcwele baNkulunkulu bashumayela bachutjwanguMoya loNgcwele.

94 Safika kanjani siprofetho na? Hhayi ngentsandvo yemuntfu,tivumokholo tebuhlelo; kepha ngentsandvo yaNkulunkulu,lapho bantfu labangcwele bebachutjwa nguMoya loNgcwele.Bekahlala njalo anguMholi waNkulunkulu. Loyo bekunguMoyaloNgcwele lobewukuleyoNsika yeMlilo, lowo bekunguMoya

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loNgcwele, noma ngumuphi umuntfu uyati kutsi loyobekunguKristu.Mosewashiya iGibhithe, atsi kwetfukwa ngencayaKristu kuyimfuyo lenkhulukati kunaleyo yaseGibhithe.KwakunguYe Kristu. Yebo-ke, uma bema ngephandle laphofutsi batsi, “Yebo, Wena utsi Unguye…Ngani, Awukabi ngishoneminyaka lengetulu kwemashumi lasihlanu budzala, futsi Utsiwambona Abraham na?”95 Watsi, “Angakabi khona Abrahama, NGIKHONA.”NGIKHONA nguYe lona lowahlangana naMoses eNsikeniyeMlilo esihlahleni lesivutsako. Yebo, mnumzane.BekanguNkulunkulu entiwe inyama. Akusuye umuntfuwesitsatfu; umuntfu lofanako esikhundleni lesehlukile. Akusibobonkulunkulu labatsatfu; mahhovisi lamatsatfu aNkulunkululoyedvwa. Kungiko.96 Kulungile, manje, umBhalo. Njalo, uma Nkulunkulualungisela, Ulungisa lokwendlula konkhe. NgesikhatsiNkulunkulu alungisela indlela kucinisa libandla laKhe,Walungisela lokwendlula konkhe. Uma Anika Adam naEva,ensimini yase Edeni, Labanika kona bekuLivi laKhe. “Wenahlala emva kwaleliLivi, futsi uphephile. Kodvwa uma uphumakuLo, mhla udla kuwo utakufa.” Nkulunkulu akakate aguculeemasu aKhe. NaSathane akatange awagucule akhe; lendlelalangena ngayo kuAdamnaEva, ungena kubo namuhla. Ngani na?Ngekutama kuLizindlela ulikhiphe. “Manje, kuyacondzakalakutsi Nkulunkulu angeke akwente. O, Nkulunkulu ushito,”kwasho Sathane, “kodvwa impela Nkulunkulu longcweleangeke akwente loku.” Impela Uyokwenta, ngoba WatsiUyokwenta!97 Futsi nguloko lokushiwo bantfu namuhla, “O, manjeawume! Awukholwa manje, uma ngiya enkonzweni futsingikhokhe kweshumi kwami, futsi ngenta loku, nalokunye,Nkulunkulu utangidzacata phansi na?” Uma umuntfuangatalwa kabusha, angeke awucondze ngisho neMbusowaNkulunkulu! Niyabona? Akukho-taba! “Yebo, indvodzalendzala lephuyile, salukati lesiphuyile, kukhona umphefumulolomdzala lolungile.” Indlela kuphela lebangake babonengayo Nkulunkulu, kutsi batalwe kabusha. Nguloko kuphela.Angikhatsali kutsi bancane kangakanani, badzala kangakanani,basha kangakanani, kutsi bentani, kutsi baya kanengikangakanani enkonzweni, mangakhi emahlelo lebawatiko,basisho kangakanani sivumokholo. Ufanele utalwe kabushakungenjalo awukho ngisho esisekelweni, kucala. Kunjaloimpela.98 Ngako, niyabona, udzinga uMholi. Utakuholela eCinisweni,neliCiniso liLivi. Utanihola. Futsi bekuhlala kunjalo.Nkulunkulu akadzingi nhlobo kutsi agucule lutfo, ngobaUngulotesiphetfo futsi Uyakwati lokuncono kunako konkhe.Ungulosetindzaweni tonkhe, Ungulowati konkhe, U—Ungiko

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konkhe. Kunjalo, Nkulunkulu unjalo, ngako Akadzingeki kutsiagucuke. Kulungile.

99 UnguMcinisekisi walendlela Lakuhola kuyo. UMoyaloNgcwele, uMholi, unguMcinisekisi walo leloLiviLalifundzisako. Manje, Lukha bekaholwa nguMholi, kutsiatsi, “Hambani niye eveni lonkhe, nishumayele liVangelikuko konkhe lokudaliwe. Lokholwako abhabhatisweutawusindziswa, longakholwa utawulahlwa. Naletibonakalisoleti titawubalandzela labakholwako; ngeliGama laMibatawukhipha emademoni, bakhulume ngetilimi letisha,baphatse tinyoka, banatse lokubulalako, babeke tandlakulabagulako futsi bayosindza.” futsi liBhayibheli lashokutsi, “Baya etindzaweni tonkhe,” baholwa nguMholi, niyati,“bashumayela Livi, netibonakaliso tilandzela.” Bekuyini na?UMholi acinisekisa kutsi Lelo kwakuliCiniso!

100 Loyo bekungumgomo waNkulunkulu. Kwakubekwengaleyondlela. Lolo luhlelo lwaKhe; Angeke agucuke kulo,ngoba Ungulongapheli. Ameni. Angeke agucuke kulo;UnguNkulunkulu. Mine ngingagucuka; ngingumuntfu. Wenaungagucuka; uwesilisa noma uwesifazane. Kodvwa Nkulunkuluangeke agucuke. Mine ngingulophelako; ngingawentaemaphutsa futsi ngisho tintfo ngeliphutsa, sonkhe singawenta.Kodvwa Nkulunkulu angeke, abe anguNkulunkulu. SincumosaKhe sekucala siphelele. Indlela Nkulunkulu lenta ngayoeshashalazini, nguleyondlela Lafanele ente ngayo ngasosonkhe sikhatsi. Uma Abitelwa eshashalazini kutsi asindzisesoni, Usisindzisa esisekelweni sentfo yinye. Ngesikhatsilesilandzelako uma soni sifika, Ufanele ente ngendlela lefanako,noma-ke kungenjalo shokutsi Wenta kabi ngesikhatsi Entakwekucala. Ameni. NgiyaMtsandza. Ngiyati kutsi liCiniso.

101 Nginemashumi lasihlanu-nakutsatfu eminyaka budzala,bengishumayela liVangeli lapha iminyaka lengamashumilamatsatfu-nakutsatfu nencenye, angikate ngikubonekwehluleka. NgiKubonile kuvivinywa kasikhombisaumhlaba wonke, kutotonkhe tinhlobo tetinkholo nakokonkhe lokunye, embikwalabanengi ngangencenye yesigidzingesikhatsi lesisodvwa, futsi aKwehlulekanga nakancane.Angikhulumi lokuvela encwadzini letsite, ngikhulumangalokuke kwangehlela mine, lengatiko kutsi Nkulunkulu umaemvakweLivi laKhe futsi aLihloniphe. Manje, uma unenhloboletsite yesivumokholo, kufanele ukucaphele loko. KodvwauMoya loyiNgcwele utawulesekela Livi laNkulunkulu.

102 KuJohane loNgcwele, sahluko 1 nelivesi 1, watsi,“UnguLivi. UnguMholi. Ekucaleni bekakhona Livi, LivibekanaNkulunkulu, Livi bekanguNkulunkulu. NaLivi wentiwainyama wakha phakatsi kwetfu.” Hhe!

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103 Petru waholelwa kutsi atsi, eTentweni 2:38, kutsiwemukelwa kanjani uMoya loNgcwele, watsi, “Phendvukani,nguloyo naloyo, bese-ke nibhabhatiswa eGameni laJesu Kristukuko kutsetselelwa kwetono tenu, khona-ke uMholi utanitsatsakusukela lapho kuchubeke njalo.” Yebo, nguleyontfo lefanelekwentiwa. Kucala, phendvuka etonweni takho, kungakolwakwakho, kutsi awutikholwanga letintfo leti. Phendvuka, bese-ke uyabhabhatiswa, khona-ke uMholi utakutsatsa kusukelalapho kuchubeke njalo. Niyabona, loyo ngumsebenti wakho.Kungumsebenti wakho kutsi uphendvuke. Kungumsebentiwakho kutsi ubhabhatiswe. Bese kuba ngumsebenti weMholikutsi akutsatse kusukela lapho kuchubeke njalo, akuhole usukeemandleni uye ekwatini, uye ekutitsibeni, uye ekubeketeleni, uyeekumesabeni Nkulunkulu, naselutsandvweni lwebuzalwane,naMoya loNgcwele ukunamatselisa ngeluphawu. Niyabona?Khona-ke sewungumumo logcwele waNkulunkulu, indvodzambamba yaNkulunkulu, wesifazane mbamba waNkulunkulu,labagciliswe le kuKristu. Ngiyakutsandza loko, loko kugciliswale kuKristu.

104 Yebo, Markho bekaholwa nguMoya loNgcwele, kubhalaMarkho 16, kusobala.

105 Johane bekaholwa ngesikhatsi abhala Sambulo. BekaholwanguMholi. Bekaholwa nguMholi futsi kutsi atsi, “Loyosusa Livilinye kuKo, noma angete Livi linye kuKho, naye utawususwa,sabelo sakhe, eNcwadzini yekuPhila.”

106 Manje, utawufaka kanjani lokunye esikhundleni salokunyeeVini laNkulunkulu, futsi ube usatsi uholwa nguMoyaloyiNgcwele na? Akuwenti umcondvo, kunawo na? Cha,mnumzane. Akunawo.

107 Bekasolo anguMholi wami ekuphileni konkhe. Ungiholeleekuphileni. Kwaba nguYe lowangiholela ekuPhileni, futsiUkuPhila kwami. Ngaphandle kwaKhe anginakuPhila.Ngaphandle kwaKhe angifuni lutfo lolunye. Ungiko konkhe-kuko-Konkhe kwami konkhe. Emahoreni enhlupheko yami,Uma ngakimi. Itolo Ungibusisile, namuhla bente lokufanako.Yini lengingayilindzela na? Lofanako njalo njalo, alibongweiGama laKhe! Ameni. Yebo, mnumzane. Wakwetsembisa.Utakwenta. UkuPhila kwami, UnguMholi wami, konkhe-kuko-Konkhe. NgiMetsembile. Ngibe netivivinyo letimatima.Ngetsemba Yena nomaphi langiyakhona. Ngifuna nikwente.Uma uyowasha, nine besifazane, tsembani Yena. Uma uyaentansi nelidolobha, tsemba Yena.

108 Kwake kwangenta ngalesinye sikhatsi lapho bengicabangakutsi ngingumhlali-mahlatsini lonelikhono, uyati, ngatingelakakhulu. Ngacabanga, “Ngiphelele nje, akekho umuntfu loto…Bewungeke ungilahlekele. Make wami bekaliNdiya incenye,

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futsi ngangikutsandza loko. O, he! Angeke ungilahlekeleemahlatsini, ngiyati kutsi ngikuphi.”109 Futsi ngaya ku-honeymoon yami, ngatsi kumkhohlikhohlisaumkami, ngamtjela, “Uyati, sithandwa, kungaba yintfo lenhlekutsi sishade ngenyanga yeMphala tingemashumi lamabilinakutsatfu.” Kusobala, iNkhosi yangitjela kutsi ngikwentengalesosikhatsi.110 Futsi ngacabanga, “Manje, mayelana ne-honeymoonlencane, ngaticokelelela imali yami, futsi ngitamtsatsa ngiyenaye ngale eNiagara Falls, bese ngiya ngale eAdirondack ngitsikutingela kancane.” Niyabona? Ngako ngamtsatsa naBilly,bekaseyintfwanyana lencane nje. Ngako-ke ngamtsatsa sayaku-honeymoon, futsi kwakeseluhambeni lwekutingela, futsi,niyati. Ngako—ngako ngacabanga kutsi kungaba yintfo lenhlekukwenta. Ngako-ke ngamtsatsa ngamkhuphula, futsi i…111 Ngabhalela uMnu. Denton, umphatsi wendzawoyetinyamatane. Futsi besenyuka siya eHurricane Mountain.Futsi ngatsi, “Mnu. Denton, ngiyakhuphuka, ngifuna kutingelalibhele kanye nawe kulesisikhatsi sasekwindla.”112 Wase utsi, “Kulungile, Billy, yenyuka.” Ngako watsi,“Ngitoba setulu lapho ngelusuku lolutsite-tsiteni.” Chake-ke, nkhosikazi nami sefika lapho kusasele lusuku lunye,naBilly, futsi ngako indlu leyakhiwe ngetingodvo beyikhiyiwe.Bekukhona likulusana lelincane ngemuva etulu emahlatsini.113 Lapho, uMnaketfu Fred Sothmann nami saya khonaesikhatsini lesingesidze lesendlulile futsi sema lapho. UMoyaloyiNgcwele, ngiMbonile eme lapho, loko kuKhanya lokumtfubikuhamba hamba esihlahleni, naFred eme khona lapho.Watsi, “Buye eceleni, Ngifuna kukhuluma nawe. Kusasa,”watsi, “caphela, bakuciphile.” Watsi, “Hlala ucaphele!”Ngabe kunjalo, Mnaketfu Fred? Futsi ngahamba ngatjelaemakhulu ebantfu kulobobusuku, ngale eVermont, ngatsi“Ngiciphiwe; ngitakubona. Angati kutsi kukuphi.” Futsi ngabobusuku lobulandzelako, nako kufika, nako lapho. Ngatsi,“Nangu sochaka lociphiwe.” Yebo, mnumzane. Kodvwa uMoyaloyiNgcwele wangiholela ekutseni ngente ini. Futsi, o, he, lokokwakungiko impela! O, labanengi benu bayati kutsi bekuyini.Anginaso sikhatsi sekukucoca.114 Kodvwa ngime lapho kuleyondzawo ngalesosikhatsi,sekucala nje kuba makhata ngalelolanga. UMnu. Dentonbekatokhuphuka ngelusuku lolulandzelako, ngatsi, “Uyati,sithandwa, kungaba kuhle uma ngingatfola i—inyamatanelenkhulu kutsi siye nayo ekhaya.” Ngatsi, “Sakwenta…Nginconobetele labopeni, futsi sisandza kushada.” Futsi ngatsi,“Singatfola inyama yetfu yasebusika uma ngingatsi kutingelakancane namuhla.”

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115 Futsi watsi, “Kuhle, chubeka, Billy.” Watsi, “Manje,ukhumbule, angikate ngibe kulamahlatsi,” washo.Bekasemamayeleni latsi akabe ngemashumi lamabili nesihlanuetulu etintsabeni, niyati, futsi watsi, “Angati lutfo ngaloku.”Futsi watsi, “Ngako ngi…”

116 Ngatsi, “Kuhle, manje, niyakhumbula, kwakuyiminyakalemibili lebeyendlulile ngibulale lawomabhele lamatsatfu. Lokokwakungale emuva kwesicoko sentsaba laphaya.” Futsi ngatsi,“Manje, ngitotfola inyamatane lenkhulu futsi sitotfola libhele,”futsi ngatsi, “sitotfola inyama yetfu yasebusika ekhatsi.”Yebo, loko kuvakala kukuhle impela, uyati. (Futsi sakhaemagung’mence, futsi satsatsa emalahle etfu alobo—lobo busika;futsi ngako Billy wawatsengisa, futsi Meda nami sawakhaakusihlwa emva kwekuba sekugadzeni kwami.) Ngako-kenga—ngatsi, “Kuhle, ngitawutsatsa sibhamu sami, ngehlelalapha.” Ngatsi, “Kukhona incumbi yetindluzela ekhatsi lapha,ngitayitfola leyodvwa.” futsi ngatsi, “Uyati,” ngatsi, “ngako-kengitamtfola.” futsi ngatsi, “Sitawu…Ngitawusheshe ngibuye.”

Watsi, “Kulungile.”

117 Ngako-ke, ngesikhatsi ngicala kusuka, kwakutsi akubephansinyana. Futsi noma ngubani wenu bantfu base NewHampshire, futsi etulu lapho eNew England, uyati kutsikuchaza kutsini uma leyonkhungu yehla, noma kukuyiphi lenyeindzawo etintsabeni, awati kutsi ukuphi. Nguloko kuphela.Awukhoni kubona sandla sakho embikwakho.Ngako-ke ngacalakwehla ngendlula e—ekugawuleni lokuncane, kanjalo, ngehla,futsi ngawelela ngesheya kwemngcengcema ngase ngenyuka.Futsi ngabona luhlobo lolutsite lwengwe, ningakubita kanjalolapha kulencenye yelive. Sikubita ngekutsi, eNshonalanga,silwane lesifana nelibhubesi. Bakubita ngekutsi, etulu lapho,libhubesi lentsaba. Konkhe kusilwane lesifanako. Yipuma,singuloko empeleni. Likati lelifanako, lelitsi alibe ngemafithilayimfica budze, lelisindza cishe likhulu nemashumi lasihlanu,emaphawundi langemakhulu lamabili. Lewela umgwaco,futsi ngahoshula sibhamu sami ngalokukhulu kushesha,angisheshanga ngalokwenele kutsi ngilidubule.

118 Yebo-ke, ngatsi nyeleele etulu etikweligcuma, ngicoshalesilwane lesifana nelibhubesi, ngicaphelisisa emacembe laphobesikadze sihamba khona, uyati. Bengisiva. Sasinetinyawoletine. Bengati kutsi sasingesiso silwane lesinetinyawo letimbili,tinyawo taso letine. Futsi bengati kutsi sasingesiyo indluzela,ngoba indluzela iyangcingcitela. Futsi sasinyenya kalula kabi,likati, uyati, kanjalo. Futsi libhele liyatigoca tinyawo talo umalihamba. Futsi ngako bengati kutsi kufanele kube silwanelesifana nelibhubesi. Futsi sasisemvakwesigodvo futsi angizangengisibone, ngate ngasibona sitsi shati, sabe sihambile.

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119 Futsi ngayicaphelisisa indlela lesasinyakatisa ngayoemacembe, uyati, etulu etikwesicoko sentsaba, naphansikanje, futsi bengingakalinaki lelifu nalita sonkhe lesikhatsi,uyati, kwehla inkhungu. Ngashona entasi, ngehla ngesigodzilesikhulu ngase ngehla ngingena emahholokohlweni,ngilandzela lesilwane lesifana nelibhubesi. Bengicabangakutsi, “Ngitosibamba emva kwesikhashanyana.” Ngangiyibonaindzawo, futsi ngangigijima ngiye etulu endzaweni lephakeme,futsi ngibuka ndzawo tonkhe kanjalo, futsi ngilungutangalapha nangalapha, kubona kutsi ngingasibona yini;ngilalelisisa impela, bese ngiyehla, ngibuye ngehlele phansifutsi. Bewukuva kukhala kwekufohloka kwemacembe, leembi kwami, lapho siphuma. Niyabona, sasishaya tihlahlangalesosikhatsi kuze ngingakwati kusilandzela emkhondvweni.Niyabona, sahlakanipha, sakhwele etulu tihlahleni bese sizubasisuke esihlahleni siye esihlahleni lesinye. Ngako besati kutsingeke ngiwulandzele umkhondvo waso lapho. O, ngacabanga,“O, noma kanjani!”120 Futsi ngacala kubuyela emuva engoceni yematje lemakhulu,futsi ngeva liphunga lelibhele, libhele lenkunzi lendzala.Ngacabanga kutsi, “Ngitalitfola manje, mfana, kuhle!” Ngalivaliphunga futsi, ngatsi kuchubeka kancane, futsi ngabhekisisatonkhe tinhlobo tetimphawu nako konkhe. Angibonangalutfo; ngajika ngabuyela entansi, futsi ngabuyela emuvaentansi ngakulelinye lisayidi lentsaba. Ngase-ke ngicalakucaphelisisa, sekucala kuba nenkhungwana. Futsi ngaphindzengaliva liphunga, lalisemoyeni ndzawo ndzawo. Ngatsi, “Cha.Manje, lokwenteka, umoya wawehla uta ngalendlela, futsingeta…ngalibamba liphunga lelibhele livela ngalapha phansingaleyondlela, futsi ngase ngiwele ngajika manje nemoya utangakuleli lelinye lisayidi. Ngako kufanele ngibuyele emuvalapho ngilive linuka khona libhele kwekucala, futsi ngilitsatsekusukela lapho.”121 Futsi endleleni yami sengibuya, ngabuka ngesheyakwengoce, ngabona tihlahla tinyikanyika. Futsi mangikwenta,intfo lemnyama yanyakata. Ngacabanga, “Nalo ke.” Ngaphonsalibhosho etulu esibhamini, ngalokukhulu kushesha, ngasengiyema ngiyathula. Futsi, lapho lentanjalo, bekuyinyamatanelenkhulu lebanti, lenkhulu lebanti. Ngacabanga, “Ngulokoimpela lebengivele ngikufuna, noko.” Ngayidubulalenyamatane.122 Ngacabanga, “Kuhle!” Angitange nginake kutsikwakungatsi…Ngesikhatsi ngiyilungisa, ngabuka…ngesulatandla tami futsi ngalungisa umukhwa wami, ngawubuyisela.Futsi ngacabanga, “Akabongwe Nkulunkulu! NgiyaKubonga,Nkhosi Jesu, Ungiphe inyama yami yasebusika. MakabongweNkulunkulu!” futsi ngatsatsa sibhamu sami. Ngacabanga,“Ngitawubuyela emuva ngco ngikhuphuke ngengoce lapha

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manje.” Ngatsi, “Buka lapha, mfana, kuta siphepho. Kunconongiphume lapha futsi ngibuyele ngale kuMeda kanye nabo.”Ngatsi, “Kufanele ngisheshe.”123 Ngenyuka ngengoce, ngachacha emakinobho elibhantji lamilelikhulu lelibomvu, futsi ngangigijima ngenyuka ngengocekanje, ngekujikeleta. Intfo yekucala uyati, ngacabanga, “Wo,ngijikephi kepha?” Umoya wase uvele sewusentasi, tihlahlatihhushela ndzawonye. Ngacabanga, “Ngijikephi kepha?”Ngatungeleta. Be—bengati kutsi bengihamba ngicondzengco eNtsabeni iHurrican. Kodvwa kwenteka ngema, futsibengijuluka, ngacabanga, “Yini indzaba lapha na? Sengihambeincenye yelihora, kumbe emakota lamatsatfu, futsi angiyitfolileyondzawo lengijike kuyo.” Ngabuka etulu, futsi nansoindluzela yami ilenga. Ngangikuyo ngco indzawo lefanako.Ngacabanga, “Hawu, ngentenjani?”124 Cha, ngachubeka futsi. Ngacabanga, “Ngitayitfolangalesikhatsi, bengingakanaki nje.” Ngabhekisisa nalokuncanekunyakata ndzawo tonkhe, ngicaphelisisa. Ngachubeka ngifuna,ngifuna, ngifuna. Lawomafu eta, ngiyati kutsi siphepho selichwabesesisendleleni, inkhungu ihambela phansi, sengicala-kekucaphelisisa. Ngacabanga, “Ngitawutsi kuchubeka kancane,”ngachubeka njalo, njalo, njalo, njalo, njalo, njalo, njalo. Futsingacabanga, “Awu, kusimanga loku, kubukeka kungatsi ngikengayibona lendzawo lena ngaphambilini.” futsi ngabuka, futsinayo indluzela yami ilenga. Niyabona?125 Niyati kutsi bengikuphi? EmaNdiya akubita ngekutsi“kuhamba ekufeni.” Niyabona, uhamba ushaye indingilizi,ujikajika ujikajika. Cha, ngacabanga kutsi ngangilukhukhuvalwemholi kutsi ngingake ngilahleke. Niyabona, akukholebekungangitjela ngemahlatsi, bengiyati indlela yami yonkheindzawo. Niyabona?126 Ngabuye ngacala futsi. Ngatsi, “Ngeke ngisalentaleliphutsa.” futsi ngabuya futsi.127 Ngatsi kuhamba libanganyana lelincane ngenyukangengoce, lapho-ke lase licalile kuhhusha. O, hhe, lichwandzawo tonkhe! Sekucishe kube mnyama impela. Futsi bengatikutsi Meda bekatakufa ngalobo busuku ehlane, bekangati kutsiangatiphephisa kanjani. NaBilly bekaneminyaka nje letsi ayibemine budzala, aneminyaka lemitsatfu budzala, aseyintfwanyanalencane nje. Futsi ngacabanga, “Batakwentanjani nje?” Yebo,ngakhuphuka kangaka ngashaya umbhedze wengushane,ngacabanga, “Ngisetsafeni ndzawo ndzawo, futsi angiboni lutfo,kunenkhungu konkhe.”Ngangihamba ngitungeletamanje.128 Ngalokwejwayelekile, ngangiyaye ngititfolele indzawongibambelele, kube kukhona lebenginaye. Ngibambelelengilindze siphepho size sendlule, lusuku noma letimbili,bese ngiyaphuma. Ngisike licatsa lami lendluzela…

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lengiyimemile emhlane, ngihambe ngingene, ngidle, besengivele ngiyakhohlwa ngiso. Kodvwa angeke ukwente loko,futsi umkakho nemntfwana balele etulu lapho emahlatsini,babhubha. Niyabona?129 Ngako ngase ngicala kucabanga, “Ngingenta njani na?”Ngako ngachubeka kancane. Futsi ngacabanga, “Manje, awume.Ngesikhatsi ngiwelela ngesheya kulesosigodzi sekucala, umoyabewubhekene nami, ngako kusho kutsi ngite ngalapha. Kufanelengite ngalapha.” futsi ngase ngiduke ngaya entansi ngangenaemahholokohlweni, kodvwa bengingati kutsi ngangikuphi.Ngatsi, “O!” Ngicala kuba neluvalo. Futsi ngacabanga, “Awumekancane, Bill, awukalahleki,” ngitama kutiyenga. Ungekeukuyenge kona. Cha, cha. Loyonembeza longekhatsi uyakutjelakutsi uneliphutsa.130 O, u—utama kutsi, “O, ngisindzisiwe, ngiyaya esontfweni.”Ungakhatsateki, lindza kute kufike loyombhedze wekufa,futsi uyokwati kutsi kwehlukile. Nembeza wakho uyakutjela.Lokungekhatsi kuwe kuyakutjela kutsi usephutseni. Niyabona?Uyati kutsi uma bewungase ufe bewungeke ubonanenaNkulunkulu longcwele. Njengoba siMbonile itolo ebusuku,ngisho netiNgelosi letingcwele timbonya buso bato kute timeembikwaKhe. Utawuma kanjani ngaphandle kweNgati yaJesuKristu kutsi ikumbonye na?131 Ngacabanga, “O, ngitayitfola.” Ngacala ngachubeka.Futsi ngatfola kutsi bengiloku ngiva intfo letsite. Ngasengiba neluvalo. Futsi ngacabanga, “Manje, uma ngenta loko,ngitawuba ticucu.” Nguloko ke imvamisa indvodza lelahlekilelekwentako, iba ticucu emahlatsini. Bese ivele itsatsa sibhamusayo, itidubule; noma iwele esihholweni yephuke umlentewayo, futsi ilale lapho, iyofela lapho. Ngako ngacabanga,“Ngitakwentanjani?”Ngako ngacala ngachubeka ngahamba.132 Futsi bengisolo ngiva intfo letsite itsi, “NgiluSito impelaesikhatsini sekuhlupheka.” futsi ngavele ngasoloku ngihambangichubeka.133 Ngacabanga, “Manje, ngiyati sengitsi kwehla kancanemanje, ngiva liphimbo likhuluma nami.” Ngasoloku ngihambangichubeka. Futsi kubu, “whi, whi, whi,” ngishaya inkwela,uyati. Ngacabanga, “Manje, angika lahleki. Uyati kutsiukuphi, mfana! Yini indzaba ngawe? Ungeke ulahleke. U—uyintingeli lekahle kakhulu, ungeke ulahleke.” Kutincoma,uyati, ngitiyenga mine lucobo lwami.134 Angeke uwukhohlise. Le phansi lapha kukhona lisondvolelincane leligicikako, lelitsi, “Mfana, ulahlekile futsi uyati nawekutsi ulahlekile. Niyabona, ulahlekile.”135 Bengiloku ngichubekela embili. “O, angika lahleki!Ngitawubakahle. Ngitayitfola indlela yami yekuphuma.” tintfoticala kubukeka tiyincaba, imimoya iyavala. Lichwa licala

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kukhitsika, lichwa lelincane lelingangetinkhobe, sikubitangekutsi “kukhifita.” Ngacabanga, “Umkami nemntfwana!Angi…”Ngacabanga, “O, he!”136 Khona lapho futsi ngakuva ngco loko, kwatsi, “NgiluSitoimpela esikhatsini sekuhlupheka.” futsi ngangingumfundisiweliVangeli ngalesosikhatsi, ngishumayela khona laphaetabernakeli.137 Ngako ngacabanga, “Awu, ngitakwentanjani?” Ngema,ngabuka ndzawo tonkhe, futsi kwasekunenkhungulekhansa phansi manje. Nga…Bekunguloko. Ayikho-keintfo lebeyingentiwa ngalesosikhatsi. Ngacabanga, “O,ngitokwentanjani?” Ngacabanga, “Mnumzane, angikafanelikuphila, bengitetsemba kakhulu. Bengicabanga kutsingiyintingeli, kantsi angisiyo.”138 Futsi, mnaketfu, bengihlala njalo ngetsemba Yena.Kudubula, nginemarekhodi etulu lapho. Futsi umdwebi,angisilolutfo, kodvwa bengihlala njalo ngetsemba Yena.Kudubula, ngingumdubuli longasilutfo, kodvwaUngente ngentaemarekhodi emhlaba ako. Niyabona? Ngidubule indluzela,sikhombisa, emayardi langemakhulu lasiphohlongo. Ngatsatsasibhamu etulu lapho ngabulala umhlambi wetinyamataneletingemashumi lamatsatfu nesihlanu ngaphandle kwekugejangaso. Ningakufundza nje loko noma ngukuphi, umaningakhona. Niyabona? Akusimi, nguYe. Ngetsembe Yena.

Nako-ke lapho bengikhona, ngacabanga,“Ngitakwentenjani? Ngitokwentenjani?”139 Ngangisolo…Lokho kusondzesondzela, kusondzela,“NgiluSito impela esikhatsini sekuhlupheka, luSito impela.”140 Ngacabanga, “Ngabe loyo nguNkulunkulu ukhulumanami?” Ngetfula sigcoko sami. Nganginesigcoko samisekuntjingela, sigocotwe ngeliduku lelibovu. Ngasibeka phansi.Ngakhumula libhantji lami, belimantana. Ngase ngilibekaphansi libhantji lami, ngamisa sibhamu sami ngasincikisaeceleni kwesihlahla. Ngatsi, “Babe waseZulwini, manjesekungetulu kwemandla ami, ngiva liphimbo likhuluma nami.Ngabe nguWe?” Ngatsi, “Nkhosi, ngitawuvuma kuWe kutsiangisiyo intingeli. Angisiyo, a—angikwati kutfola indlela yamiyonkhe indzawo. Kumele Ungisite. Angikafaneli kuphila,nekwenta tintfo lengitentile, ngingene lapha futsi ngicabangakutsi ngati kakhulu ngako kutsi ngingake ngilahleke.NgiyaKudzinga, Nkhosi. Umkami uwesifazane lolungile.Umntfwana wami, umfanyana wami, unina sewashona, futsiutama kuba ngunina kuye, futsi ngisandza kumshada. Futsinangu, umfanyana, laphaya emahlatsini, bobabili batawufakusihlwa. Loyomoya, utawujika wehle simo sekubandza cishengelishumi ngaphansi kwa-zero, futsi angeke bakwati kutsibatawuphila kanjani. Batawufa kusihlwa. Ungabavumeli

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bafe, Nkulunkulu. Ngiyise kubo, kute ngibone kutsi abafi.Ngilahlekile! Ngilahlekile, Nkulunkulu! A—angikhonikutfola indlela yami ndzawotonkhe. Ungeke wangisita?Futsi ngitsetselele, ngendlela yami yekutatisa! Ayikho intfolengingayenta ngaphandle kwaKho, Wena unguMholi wami.Ngisite, Nkhosi.”141 Ngasukuma, futsi ngatsi, “Ameni.” Ngatsatsa liduku lami;libhantji lami, ngalitsatsa; ngagcoka sigcoko sami; ngatsatsasibhamu sami. Ngatsi, “Manje ngitotimisela kwendlulakonkhe lengatiko kutsi kuhanjwa kanjani, kucondza kwamilokwendlula konkhe; futsi ngitohamba ngicondze ngcongendlela leyodvwa, ngoba ngihamba ngishaya indingilizindzawo ndzawo, angati kutsi kuphi. Kodvwa ngitawuhambangendlela Longitjela yona,Nkhosi Nkulunkulu,Mholi wami.”142 Ngacala ngahamba ngalendlela. Ngatsi, “Ngiyo le, futsingifanele ngitente ngiyikholwe. Ngihamba ngalendlela.Ngihamba ngicondza ngalendlela. Anginakweduka, ngihambangalendlela. Ngiyati kutsi ngikahle. Ngihamba ngalendlela.”Kuba ngachubeka ngahamba ngaleyondlela, bengiyozengiyotseleka ngale eCanada. Niyabona?143 Ngalesosikhatsi nje ngeva intfo letsite ingitsinta ehlombelami, sandla, kwevakala njengesandla semuntfu, ngekusheshalokukhulu ngangekutsi ngate ngacalata kutsi ngibuke.Kwakungekho muntfu lobekeme lapho. Ngacabanga, “Bekuyinileyo?” Nali liBhayibheli embikwami. Nkulunkulu, uMholi wamineMahluleli, ume lapha. Ngavele ngabuka etulu. Futsi khonaemuva ngalendlela, leyonkhungu yavele yasa yakhwesha ngazengakwati kubona umbhoshongo etikweNtsaba iHurricane.Ngihamba ngco ngiyishiya emuva, likhono lami lelendlulakonkhe lekutingela, ngangihamba ngikhwesha kuyo, sesihambeimpela sikhatsi kusihlwa ngalesosikhatsi. Ngajika ngalokukhulukushesha, ngiticondzisa lucobo lwami kanje. Ngabamba sigcokosami ngaphakamisa tandla tami, ngatsi, “Ngihole ungiwelise,Nkulunkulu, Wena unguMholi wami.”144 Ngacala. Ngahamba ngacondza etulu netihholo nako konkhengiya lapho, sikhatsi sihamba sikhatsi sihamba. Kwase kuba-mnyama. Tindluzela tatigcuma embikwami, nako konkhe.Ngangingasacabangi lutfo kodvwa ngatsi angihambe ngendlelaleyodvwa, khona etulu kulentsaba.145 Futsi ngiyati uma ngingake ngifike embhoshongweni,uMnu. Denton nami…nami sasita kufaka leyontsambongaleyontfwasahlobo. Sabophela luhwayela lwelucinolusuka eNtsabeni iHurricane, lwehla njalo cishe lamatsatfunencenye kumbe emamayela lamane, lwehle njalo luyeenkanjini. Futsi lwehla lwacondza entansi ngemkhondvovanelomncane, kodvwa, lichwa etulu lapho, bewungeke uwushoumkhondvovane. Niyabona? Futsi umoya uhhusha nako konkhe,

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kwakumnyama nesiphepho lesikhulu selichwa futsi, ngihamba,bewungeke usho kutsi nekutsi ukuphi. Yebo, intfo kuphelalengangikwati kuyenta, emva kwekuba sekuhlwile, futsibengingati…Ngiyati ngangihamba ngendlela yinye, futsi etulule entsabeni. Lobangela ngangifanele kuhamba ngikhuphukeleentsabeni, nembhoshongo bewusesicokweni ngco sentsaba, futsibenginemamayela lasitfupha kutsi ngifike kuwo. Cabanga nje,leyonkhungu yavuleka ibuyela emuva, emamayela lasitfupha,imbobo leyodvwa nje, ngate ngayibona!146 Kwase kutsi-ke nga—ngaphatsa sibhamu sami ngalesandlalesi, futsi ngaphakamisela lesandla lesi etulu, ngobangangibophele lu—luhwayela etihlahleni kanjalo ngehla,tihwayela tilucingo tiya edlangaleni lelakhiwe ngetingodvo,kute akwati kukhuluma nemkakhe, bese abita alapho,avela entsabeni. Futsi ngangitomsita alwehlise ngalelolikwindla. Futsi sandla sami besiphakeme kanje, ngitsi, “ONkulunkulu, mangitsintse leyontsambo.” Ngihamba, nemkhonowami beyicacanjiswa buhlungu, ngidziniwe, bengingakwatikuwubamba, futsi kufanele ngikubeke phansi. Futsi ngangihlengintjintja sibhamu ngisifake kuloko; ngahlehla ngaya emuvatinyatselo letimbili kute ngiciniseke kutsi angiyigeji, ngasengiphakamisa sandla sami, ngacala kuhamba, ngihamba.Sesihambile sikhatsi, kumnyama, umoya uyahhusha. O,ngangibamba ligala, ngitsi, “Ngiyo! Cha, akusiyo.” O, kupha…Ungakuvumeli kukhale ngelivi lelingacondzakali.147 Emva kwesikhashana, lapho nje sengitsi ngilahla litsemba,sandla sami sashaya lokutsite. O, he! Ngase ngitfoliwe,ngesikhatsi ngilahlekile. Ngabambelela kulolohwayela. Ngavelengasiyekela phansi sibhamu, ngetfula sigcoko sami enhlokoyami, futsi ngema lapho. Ngatsi, “O Nkulunkulu, kuvakalakumnandzi kanjani kutfolwa, uma ulahlekile.” Ngatsi,“Kuyote kube sentansi ekugcineni kwaloluhwayela, angekengiluyekele. Ngitawubambelela kuloluhwayela. Luyongiholelalungicondzise ngco lapho konkhe kulomhlaba lokutsandzekakokimi kulele khona, khona entansi lapho. Umkami nemntfwana,ngekuphindzelela, bengati kutsi ngikuphi, bengati kutsiumlilo ubaswa kanjani, bengati kutsi batakwentanjani,nemimoya ihhusha, nemagala ayendza awa etihlahleni.”Angilokotsanga ngadedela lolocingo. Ngalubamba lolohwayelalwate lwangiholela khona impela lapho konkhe lobekutsandzekakimi emhlabeni bekukhona.148 Leso kwakusehlakalo lesibi kakhulu, nesehlakalo lesikhulukutsi ngitfole indlela yami yekuphuma, kodvwa lokokwakungesiyo incenye yako. Ngalelinyelilanga bengilahlekileesonweni. Ngahamba libandla ngelibandla, ngitama kutfolalokutsite. Ngaya kuma Seventh-day Adventisti, angitjelakutsi, “Gcina liSabatha, yekela kudla inyama.” Ngendlulelaebandleni lemaBaptisti, libandla lekucala leBaptisti, watsi,

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“Vele usukume bese ubatjela kutsi uyamkholwa Jesu KristuiNdvodzana yaNkulunkulu, futsi ngitakubhabhatisa, nguloko.”Kwakungekho lutfo. Kodvwa ngalelinye lilanga, ngaphandleehhokweni lelincane lemalahle, ngabamba tandla tamingatiphakamisa, ngabamba lokutsite; kumbe, mangimanengitsi, lokutsite kwangibamba. Kwakuyintsambo yekuPhila,uMholi. Futsi Ungihole ngekuphepha kute kube manje, angekengisisuse sandla sami kulolohwayela. Ngibambe tandla tamikuYe. Makutsi tivumokholo, emahlelo ente lafuna kukwenta,ngibambelele kuMholi. Ngoba konkhe loko kwakuloku kukhonanjalo emhlabeni nako konkhe loko lokuseZulwini, njalokusho ligugu kimi, kusekugcineni kwalentsambo. Ungiletsengekuphepha kute kube manje, ngiyoMetsemba indlela yonkhe.“Uma sekefikile Yena uMoya loNgcwele, Uyawunihola aniholelekuko konkhe…”149 Bangani, Ungiletse khona lapho ngikhona namuhla.Ungente ngaba nguloko lengingiko. NgingaMetfulangekutfokota kini. Nguyena Mholi kuphela lengati konkhengaye, ngoba lapha emhlabeni noma etulu Lapho. UnguMholiwami uma ngiyotingela. UnguMholi wami uma ngiyodweba.UnguMholi wami uma ngikhuluma nalomunye. UnguMholiwami uma ngishumayela. UnguMholi wami uma ngilala.150 Futsi uma sengifika ekufeni, Uyobe eme lapho emfuleni.Uyongiholela ngesheya kwendlela. “Angiyokwesaba lokubi,ngoba Wena unami. Intfonga yaKho neludvondvolo lwaKho,kuyongicondzisa kungiholele ngesheya kwemfula.”

Asikhuleke.151 Babe waseZulwini, ngiyambonga kakhulu uMholi, LoyoLongiholako. O, ngaletinye tikhatsi, Babe, uma ngingaMuvandzawo tonkhe kimi, ngiba nekwesaba. NgiMfuna abesedvute kwami ngoba angati kutsi sikhatsi sini lengiyogijimangaso ngikhuphukele emfuleni. NgiMfuna abe sedvute nami.Ungalokotsi ungishiye, Nkhosi. Angikwati kukhuluma,angikwati kushumayela, angikwati kutingela emahlatsini,angikwati kudweba elugwini, angikwati kushayela imoto yami,akukho lutfo lengingalwenta ngaphandle kwaKho. UnguMholiwami. Ngijabula kakhulu kutsi ngisho kulelibandla kusihlwa,kutsi Wena ungihole kanjani kuto tonkhe letintfo leti, kutsiUngiletse kanjani!152 Bengicabanga ngalelinye lilanga; akukho ngetulukweminyaka lembalwa leyendlula, ngime entasi laphaemgwacweni, futsi ngoba umndeni wami wawenteliphutsa, akekho lobekakhuluma nami. Nganginesitungesekuhlanganyela. Akukho muntfu lobekafuna lutfo ngami.Batsi, “Uyise usidzakwa.” Futsi, Nkhosi, ngako akekholobekakhuluma nami. Futsi ngiyabatsandza bantfu. Kodvwangalelinyeilanga ngesikhatsi ngibamba leyoNtsambo! Manje

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ngiyacabanga, Nkhosi, ngifanele ngitsi shelele ngiphume ngiyeehlane kutsi ke ngitfole kuphumula lokuncane. Kwentani?Akusiko kuba ngumuntfu lonesitfunti, akusiyo imfundvo;anginayo. Kodvwa kwakunguWe, Nkhosi. Wena, Nkhosi.Ungivumele nganemba inkoyoyo, ungivumele ngabambatinhlanti letinkhulu, ngoba Uyati bengifuna kukwenta. Ungiphebobabe nabomake. Ungiphe banaketfu nabodzadzewetfu.Ungiphe imphilo yami. Ungiphe inkhosikati. Ungiphe umndeni.UnguMholi wami, Nkhosi. Mangibambe sandla saKho,ungangivumeli nhlobo ngiyekele. Uma sandla lesisodvwasidzinwa, ngiyotintjintja nje tandla. Ngisite, Nkhosi.153 Futsi manje kwangatsi nguloyo naloyo lapha angabambaleyontsambo yekuPhila lefanako, Nkhosi, uMoya loyiNgcwelelokuPhila kwetfu, umtfombo loniketa imPhilo. Futsikwangatsi Ungasihola sonkhe usiyise kulelaLive lekujabulalelingesheya, lapho khona kukhatsateka kwemphilo kungasekhonemsebenti wetfu emhlabeni sewufeziwe, khona-ke ngekekusabakhona kuguga, kungabikhona bantfu lababutsakatsaka,akusayikubakhona busuku lobukhatsatako, akusayikubakhonakukhala nekuthandaza, akusayikubakhona kubitela e-altare,kodvwa siyobabasha lapho phakadze, kugula nekudzabukaakusayikubakhona. Asisayikubakhona sono, futsi siyophilaekulungeni kwaNkulunkulu eminyakeni yonkhe letako,ePhakadzeni lelingayikuphela. Siphe kona, Babe.154 Namanje, Babe, uma kukhona lokhona phakatsi laphakusihlwa longakate ayibambe leyontsambo yekuPhila,kwangatsi bangaYitfola khona manje. Futsi kwangatsi uMoyaloyiNgcwele Lohole…Futsi ngingasho kusuka enhlitiyweniyami, nesandla sami siseVini laKho, Bekahlala njalo acinisile.Ngisephutseni tikhatsi letinengi. Kodvwa Ucinisile. Makahlalenami, Nkhosi. Mangihlale naYe. Futsi kwangatsi labanyephakatsi lapha, labangaMati kusihlwa, kwangatsi bangabambasandla saKhe lesingagucuki, kute baholelwe entasi.155 Futsi ngalelinye lilanga siphumela emfuleni. Kuyobanenkhungu ngaloko-kusa, futsi. Lwandle loludzala luyobeludvuma, iJordani lelidzala, emagagasi atsi fu, kufa kuklinyakuphila kukukhipha kitsi. Kodvwa, Nkulunkulu, a—angekengesabe. Sengakulungisa kadzeni. Ngifuna nje kukhumulasigcoko sekuvikela, njengelichawe, ngiphendvuke, ngibukeemuva entasi endleleni kubona kutsi leyontsambo ingiholelekuphi. Ngibone lonkhe lihlane lengendlule kulo, nayoyonkhe indzawo lenemanyeva, nayo yonkhe incumbi yematjelengalimala kuyo, kodvwa ngibambe luHwayela. NjengobaWasho, umbhali-tinkondlo washo, “Labanye bendlula emantini,nalabanye bendlula kuzamcolo, labanye bendlula etivivinyweniletijulile, kodvwa bonkhe bendlula eNgatini.” Futsi ngifunakutsatsa loku, iNkemba lendzala lapha leyangivikelaendleleni, bese ngiYifaka ngiyibuyisele emgodleni waYo,

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ngimemete kakhulu, “Babe, tfumela ngesheya sikebhe namuhlaekuseni, ngiyeta ngitongena ekhaya.” Uyoba lapho, Nkhosi.Wakwetsembisa. Ungeke wehluleke.156 Busisa wonkhe umuntfu lolapha manje. Futsi kube bengatikutsi ibanjwa kanjani leNtsambo, futsi bangakate baYitsintse,kwangatsi tandla letingcwele tingaphakama manje, tandlaletifunako, tandla letifisako, futsi titsintse intsambo yekuPhilaletobaholela esifisweni senhlitiyo yabo, kuthula lokuphelelenekweneliseka, baphumule kuKristu.157 Tinhloko tetfu tikhotseme, tingabakhona tandlaletiphakamako bese utsi, “Akube ngimi. Bamba sandla sami?”O, Nkulunkulu akubusise.

Uma indlela yandza idzinana, Nkhosiletsandzeka kakhulu, hlala edvute,

Uma imphilo yami seyicisha kuphela;Emfuleni ngiyoma, hola tinyawo tami, bambasandla sami,

Tsatsa sandla sami, Nkhosi letsandekakakhulu, ngihole njalo.

158 Bangabakhona labanye labaphakamisa sandla sabo, batsi,“Nkhosi, ngifuna kuva kutsinta kwentsambo yekuPhilakusihlwa. Ngifuna kuva kutsi Kristu sewungitsetselele kwetonotami, futsi ngifuna kuba sidalwa lesisha kusukela kulelihorakuya embili”? Nkulunkulu akubusise. Angabakhona lomunyelotsi, “MangiKutsintse, Nkhosi. Mangitilahle lucobo lwami”?Nkulunkulu akubusise, dzadzewetfu. “Mangitilahle lucobolwami, futsi ngiyitfole, Nkhosi, kuWe.” Nkulunkulu akubusise.Futsi Nkulunkulu akubusise. Kunjalo. “Mangitilahle lucobolwami, Nkhosi. Mangikhohlwe.” Nkulunkulu akubusise,mnaketfu. “Mangi…” Nkulunkulu akubusise, dzadzewetfu.“Mangitilahle lucobo lwami nje konkhe kwati kwami.”Nkulunkulu akubusise, dzadzewetfu. Ungetsembeli emaswinilentiwe bantfu. Landzela uMholi, Utakuholela kulo lonkheliCiniso. “Ngihole, Nkhosi Jesu, ngihole.” Nkulunkulu akubusiseemuva lapho. O, tinengi tandla lebetiphakeme, tifuna insindziso.Manje tsine sisa…159 I-altare lapha, angeke ubite i-altare, ngoba bantfubahleti etikwalo lonkhe. Kodvwa Ukhona khona lapho.Uyakwati lokuhle nalokulungile, ngesikhatsi uphakamisasandla sakho, lokutsite kwentekile enhlitiyweni yakho.Jesu watsi, “Lova emaVi aMi akholwe nguYe loNgitfumile,unekuPhila lokuphakadze.” Usho njalo? Ngako kukhona lichibilapha leligcwele emanti. Kutawubakhona sikhatsi lesinengisembhabhatiso. Asikhuleke.160 Babe wetfu waseZulwini, lomlayeto lotsite kuchitsekakancane kusihlwa ngeliphimbo lelishile, uMoya loyiNgcweleungahle kutsi uphume waya ndzawo ndzawo. Uye lapho

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Bewumiselwe khona, futsi kukhona labanengi, Nkhosi,kusihlwa, labalishumi nesihlanu noma emashumi lamabililabaphakamise tandla tabo, kutsi badzinga uMholi. Bayacondzakutsi batama kutikhohlisa. Batama kutsi “Ngikahle,” kodvwaphansi le ekujuleni bayati kutsi abasinjalo. Futsi bafunakuKuva, Nkhosi. Bafuna uMholi. Bafuna kusayina impela. Wenaawukafuyi ngalokwecile. Bafuna kusayina impela mayelananaloluhambo. Abati kutsi kufikwa kanjani lapho. Akekholowatiko kutsi bayiswa kanjani lapho; Nguwe Wedvwa. BetelauMholi lolungiselelwe nguNkulunkulu, uMoya loyiNgcwele.Batiphakamisile tandla tabo.161 O Moya loNgcwele neMholi, yehlela etikwabo. Tsetselelasonkhe sono. Colela bubi babo. Batsatse ubangenise eMtimbeniwaKristu kusihlwa, lapho batakuva khona sikhukhulasaNkulunkulu sigeleta ngaleyoNtsambo leyobaholela entansieJordani, nangesheya kweJordani kuya eVeni lesetsembiso.Kwangatsi bangalandzela ngco emva kweLivi. Livi latsi,“Phendvukani, bese-ke niyabhabhatiswa eGameni laJesuKristu.” Kwangatsi bangete bakutama ngalenye indlela.Kwangatsi bangalandzela emvakweLivi ngco, ngoba nguYeLotohola. Loko ti—loko tinyatselo tekukhuphukela ngale sitesimbambe uMholi. Siphe kona, Nkhosi. Kwangatsi bangababaKho. Basetandleni taKho manje, njengemiklomelo, akekhoumuntfu longabahlwitsa. Ngiyakholwa kutsi Utobatsatsa,njengebantfu labasindzisiwe. Ngikholwa kutsi batiphakamisiletandla tabo, bebangeke bakwente loko phakatsi kubo umakungekho Intfo lekhulume nabo. Loyo bekunguWe, MoyaloyiNgcwele neMholi.162 Bayabona lihora liyavala, inkhungu ita etikwemhlaba,tivumokholo letinkhulu ne—netintfo tihlangana ndzawonye,emabandla enta umfelandzawonye, ayabutsana. Futsi, ONkulunkulu, batama kanjani kutsi, “Wonkhe loyo lonemdantiufanele asuke lapha aye eAlaska.” Nato tonkhe letintfoleti labatisongelako, akukusha kitsi, uMholi lomkhuluusikhombisile loko endleleni yeLivi. Sendlula kuyo njeleyoncenye yaLo.163 Babe, Nkulunkulu, Ukhulume kubo kusihlwa, futsingibanikela kuWe manje njengemiklomelo yeLivi. EGamenilaJesu.164 Manje, lokubekwe etikwelideski lapha, Babe, ngemaduku,kwebantfu labagulako, lomunye ngumntfwanyana, mhlawumbe,lomunye ngumake, lomunye ngudzadzewetfu, lomunyengumnaketfu; ngisho nemahepheni lamancane ahlonywekuwo. Futsi manje ngiwabamba ngiwaphakamisele edvutekwami. Manje, siyafundziswa eBhayibhelini kutsi batsatsaemtimbeni waPawula emaduku netindvwangu, nebantfulabagulako baphulukiswa, bomoya lababi baphuma kubantfu.Manje siyacondza, Nkhosi, kutsi Pawula bekangumuntfu,

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bekangumuntfu nje. Kodvwa bekulugcobo lwaMoya loNgcwelelolwalusetikwakhe lolwabusisa emaduku, nekukholwa bantfulebebanako kutsi bekangumphostoli waKho. Manje Pawulaususiwe kitsi, kodvwa cha uMholi, Usekhona lapha. Futsi,Nkulunkulu, ngiyakhuleka kutsi Utawabusisa lamaduku, futsikwangatsi uMholi angabaholela endzaweni, loko kutinikelalokuphelele.165 Siyatjelwa futsi kutsi ngesikhatsi Israyeli alandzela uMholiwabo, futsi beta behlela ngco eJordani, behlela (njalo) eLwandleloluBomvu. Kuwo impela umsebenti wabo bamiswa, neMholiwabaholela entansi lapho. Ini? Kukhombisa inkhatimulo yaKhe.Futsi uma onkhe ematsemba asaphelile, khona-ke Nkulunkuluwabuka phansi alunguta kuleyoNsika yeMlilo, futsi ngishoneLwandle loluFile lwesaba futsi lwahlehla, futsi kwabakhona indlela leyentelwa Israyeli kutsi ahambe awelele evenilesetsembiso.166 Liniso, Nkhosi, Usenguye Nkulunkulu lofanako. Labantfulaba mhlawumbe bangemaKristu, mhlawumbe bakhona impelaendleleni yemsebenti, kodvwa baletfwe kulendzawo levalelekilelapho kugula kubavalele. Buka phansi ulungute eNgatiniyaJesu kusihlwa, loyoDeveli utakwesaba, utawuhlehla, futsilabantfwana baKho batawendlulela esetsembisweni sekuphilalokuhle. Siphe kona, Babe. Ngititfumela tisuka emtimbeni wamitiya kuyabo, eGameni laJesu Kristu.167 Ngiphakamisela embikwaKho lelibandla, ngekukholwangibatsatsa ngibacondzisa ngco e-altare lelikhatimulakolaNkulunkulu ngesheya eZulwini. Ngoba sonkhe sifiso sekugula,noma ngabe yini labanako lokuliphutsa, noma ngabe yinilokuliphutsa etimphilweni tabo noma ngukuphi, Nkulunkulu,bageze, bente babe baKho. Baphulukise, Babe. Futsi kwangatsieMandla lavusa Jesu ethuneni, avuse imitimba yabo lefako futsiubente babe tidalwa letinsha kuKristu. Banike kuphila lokuhlenemandla kutsi baKukhonte.168 Ngikhumbule, O Nkhosi. Ngiyinceku yaKho. Ngisite, ngimiesidzingweni semkhuleko. Futsi ngiyakhuleka kutsi uMoyaloyiNgcwele utosihola futsi asisebentise, futsi asihole kutekube lusuku sibone Jesu Kristu buso nebuso ekuFikenikwaKhe lokukhatimulako lapha sesiMhlangabeta emoyeniekuHlwitfweni. EGameni laKristu siyakucela. Ameni.

NgiyaMtsandza, ngi…(Uyakwenta?)Ngoba Wangitsandza kucalaFutsi Wangitsengela insindzisoEmtsini eKhalvari.

169 Manje, uma ungatsandzi lomunye lombonile, utoMtsandzakanjani longakaMboni? Manje uma sihlabela NgiyaMtsandza,ake sinikete makhelwane wetfu kuchawula lokusukaenhlitiyweni kwelutsandvo.

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NgiyaMtsandza,…Nkulunkulu akubusise…?…Nkulunkulu akubusise

…?…Nkulunkulu akubusise…?…Nkulunkuluakubusise, Mnaketfu Neville…?…Uh-huh. Nkulunkuluakubusise…?…

Emtsini eKalvari.Manje masiphakamise tandla tenu kuYe.

NgiyaMtsandza, ngiyaMtsandzaNgoba Wangitsandza kucalaFutsi Wangitsengela insindzisoEmtsini eKhalvari.

170 Kweliculo lelimnandzi, ningatsandza kuliva? Ngiyacondzakutsi sinalohola emaculo longumvangeli lapha lovelaeIndianapolis. Ngikholwa kutsi uhlabela eCadle Tabernakele.Ngabe kunjalo? Kulungile, mnumzane. Leyo yindzawo yakheeCadle Tabernakele. Bangakhi labamkhumbulako E. HowardCadle? O, he! Nkulunkulu aphumute umphefumulo wakheloligugu. Umzwilili wemoya, wesifazane lengangitsandzakumuva ahlabela, kancono kunanoma ngubani cishe lengakengamuva ahlabela emphilweni yami, kwakunguNkk. Cadle,ahlabela lelitsi, “Ngaphambi kwekutsi uphume ekamelwenilakho namuhla ekuseni, ucabangile nje kukhuleka eGamenilaKristu uMsindzisi wetfu, njengeliHawu namuhla?”171 Khona ngesheya kwemgwaco lapho ngalokunye kusa,endlwaneni lencane lendzala lenemakamelo lamabili,ngasukuma, bengitongena ngibase umlilo. Sitofu sasingavumikuvutsa. Futsi ngetama kusicalisa, nemoya lohhushako wehla,wayiphuphutsela emehlweni ami lentfo. Futsi kwakumakhata,futsi ngase ngitoba litje lemakhata. Nesitfwatfwa sigcweleyonkhe indzawo phansi, nami ngingafaki neticatfulo; ngitamakutsi lesitofu selithini lesidzala sicale kusebenta, liphayiphilelincane lelihhavu kuso. Futsi ngivele…Meda nami besisandzakushada kusikhatsi lesincanyana nje. Futsi bengitama, lukhuniloludzala lwalumanti futsi lungavumi kuvutsa, futsi bengihletilapho, ngacabanga, “O, he! Ngitasitama futsi.” Kwakufanelengiye emsebentini, futsi ngivutsela lesositofu lesidzala kanjalo.Futsi ngatsi luza ngavula umsakato ngale, futsi wacalakuhlabela, “Ngaphambi kwekuba uphume ekamelweni lakhonamuhla ekuseni, ucabangile nje kukhuleka,” ngavele ngawaphansi, “eGameni laKristu uMsindzisi wetfu, njengesiHlangunamuhla?” O, ngitsandza kabi kuva loyomfati!172 Lapho sengiwela emfuleni ngalesinye sikhatsi, ngikholwakutsi ngiyomuva uNkk. Cadle ahleti laphaya. Uyati, bengihlalanjalo ngibeka lilanga. Ngakulelisayidi lemfula, kukhona uMutsilonemacembe lahlala aluhlata, uyati, umutsi wekuPhila; futsingesheya kulelinye lisayidi lemfula, kukhona ikwaya yetiNgelosilehlabela imini nebusuku, ngoba akukho busuku lapho, ihlabela

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lusuku lonkhe, niyabona. Ngiyotitfolela indzawo bese njengihlala lapho emuva ngililalele. Ngikholwa kutsi ngiyomuvauNkk. Cadle laphaya ahlabela.173 Nkulunkulu ambusise umnaketfu. Ngilikhohliwe ligamalakhe. Litsini kepha, mnaketfu? [Lomnaketfu utsi, “NedWoolman.”—Umhl.] UMnaketfu Ned Woolman utanihlabelelamanje. Mnaketfu Woolman, siyajabula kuba nawe namuhlalapha ebusuku kanye natsi. [UMnaketfu Woolman uhlabela TheChapel Of My Heart—Umhl.]

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